Everything You Need

Chapter Twenty-Nine

Madeline

I wanted to forget what happened with Christopher. I wanted to forget that I was going to have to get rid of our baby. I swear if Christopher wasn't married, I wouldn't care right now.

Why did he have to be married? I was just sitting at home throwing myself another pity party. It was the weekend, so that was perfectly fine. Giselle was at Dion's, so I was alone. I didn't know what else to do.

I would want to call Jermaine, so we can do some work together, but I really didn't want to do anything with school. I would just be distracted the whole time. I wouldn't focus.

I looked on the time on my phone, it was 6pm and usually when I'm upset. I get a drink. I'm not keeping the baby, so it doesn't matter if I drink or not anymore. Maybe, I won't drink, but I miss being carefree and partying, drinking and just doing whatever I want.

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Johnathon was nowhere to be seen at the bar, so he wasn't here tonight. I didn't text him to ask if he was working tonight or not. I sat down and I wanted to order a shot, but I resisted and I got a virgin margarita. I was sipping on my drink lightly, when a guy approached me, but I just ignored him.

I thought feeling the club scene would cheer me up, but it didn't. I just didn't see anyone attractive enough for me. I swirled my drink to the side and I was hoping someone would take my attention away. Make me want to forget what I was experiencing.

"Mads, what are you doing here? What the fuck are you drinking?"

I lifted my eyes from glass and Johnathon came towards me. He took the my margarita from me and I looked at him in shock.

"Give me back my damn drink, it's a virgin!"

He took a sip of it as I said that and he looked at me with the utmost confusion. His eyes were like a golden hue of brown and they looked between mine trying to understand me. He handed me back my drink and I took a sip from it.

"What are you doing here?" He asked.

"I was trying to find something fun to do tonight," I shrug.

I wanted to have sex, that's what. It easier to forget everything when I have sex. Tonight my fingers nor my amazing magical dildo's would do it. If I could have Christopher, I would go to him, but that's not an option.

I wasn't going to have sex with anyone here, but I wanted to do. I like being active in a time of need, which is now. I really just wanted a drink, a real drink not a stupid fucking virgin.

"I'm going to take a break, I'll be back you guys."

Johnathon came out from behind the bar and I saw him in his nice uniform. He looked so cute, he came to me, he made me get up. I slid off the chair and I quickly finished off my drink, before putting the glass down. I take my cherry out of the glass.

I took a bite out of the cherry and I put the stem back into the glass. He held my arm as I fluffed my hair out. He was kicking me out. What a boring asshole.

His eyes looked me up and down as his gaze went over me. I wanted attention tonight, so yes I did dress revealing. I wore mini leather skirt which was cut out at the sides and rode up at every single second. I wore a tight black strapless top, that made it seem like I was wearing a dress. I wore basic black heels with a black handbag.