Hardships Of Love ⋆☆⋆ JAYWON

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1 month later

Jay

I gripped my sheets as tears started falling again and again, I was tired, I was exhausted, my throat hurts from all this crying, my lips were quivering as my cheeks were stained with tears, my eyes were red,

I started gripping on my arms, stabbing my nails into them as they bled, the beautiful blood drops trickling down on my arms as I cried and cried the whole night.

jungwon has been straight up ignoring me, what makes it even worse, he flirts with other girls, like isn't he gay, aren't I his mate?

I then researched and turns out alphas can have multiple mates which made me devastated, it turned me into my current state.

I haven't eaten for a week, I don't know how I am surviving, I am like on the brink of death with my crippled state, I tried talking to everyone about it but they just turned their backs on me, saying I'm just exaggerating and that I just want attention, even sunghoon turned his back on me.

I decided that I gave up on life.

fuck this life, I was so happy and it all went down because of this,

I dragged my feet on the floor as I started striding out of my dorm, in the same state i was in, bloodshot eyes, blood on my arms, tear stained cheeks and an overall tired look.

I went inside the elevator and saw my 'friend group' there, I heard them whispering when they saw my current state, I just shrugged it off as I pushed on the button to go on the highest floor, everyone just looked at me confused, but why would they care?

ding!

I got off the elevator as I fumbled, turning the door knob of the door that leads to the rooftop, I continued, dragging my feet as I was now at the edge, I climbed over the fence as I looked down smiling.

the wind blew through my hair as I looked down at the happy couples, the bustling city being all happy on this very special day full of love...valentines day

I thought I would be able to spend this with jungwon, but turns out the world is against me,

I chuckled as I lifted my foot and was about to fall but felt someone grab my hand, jungwon. the rest of my 'friend group' were all holding onto each other trying to make me get back up.

"let go...you guys don't even care, let go...you don't even love me" I said, my voice cracking as I started crying again, my wrists were now hurting because of the grip, "fucking let go!" I said,

"you guys make me depressed and turn into this state, and now you want to make me not achieve what I wished for?" I tsked, still hanging in the air, I saw how jungwon's eyes twitched as he shouted "PULL!"

I felt myself getting lifted up as someone carried me over their shoulder, I just started tearing up again, why...why, I just want this misery to end.

I was put onto a sofa, the same old sofa where me and jungwon used to cuddle into, my expression was just blank and dull as I stared at every one being so worried,

"oh so now you are worried because I wanted to take my own life? tsk, you guys are the ones that made me want to take my own life," I bitterly said.

"what do you mean?" sunoo said, oh sunoo...the one that made everyone neglect me,

"oh so now you are acting all dumb? YOU were the one that made everyone neglect me, YOU made everyone believe your manipulative ass that I was just exaggerating and just wanted attention WHEN I JUST WANTED TO TALK ABOUT MY PROBLEMS?" I spat out as tears started falling all over again,