Ugly Truth of human life

My first love wedding

21.2.2024 My first love got married. I went to his wedding.

My mother and the guy’s mother are friends. The guy is 2 years older than me. There is an old picture of him and I. It was taken when I was 5 years old. I forgot about him totally. But when I saw that picture, I felt something. Yeah he is cute and handsome when he is 7 years old. I don't know when it started, but I slowly started to like him.

I haven't seen him for a very long time. Then, I got a marriage proposal from the (first love)guy's cousin. I feel it should not work out. It's because after marrying his cousin seeing him every day would be difficult. It's okay to marry anyone but not his cousin or his relative.

One day, I saw him at my relative's wedding. I asked my brother to introduce me to him. He also introduced me to him. But this guy(first love) only thought he missed his one strawberry ice cream.

He works in Chennai CTS and I work in Mangalore Infosys. ‘Like he is in Pondicherry I am in Goa’. If I have to meet him, I have to travel about 16 hours by train.

I got his number from my brother's phone. I started chatting with him. He always tells me because of you. I missed my strawberry ice cream. He said that he left IT job and studies to become an IAS Collector. I was really surprised. I changed his contact name in my phone from his name to his name IAS. I was very confident he would become a collector.

My parents started to see proposals for my marriage. Then I told him one day I like him. But he said he doesn't feel like I do. In the end, I married the guy whom my parents chose for me.

My husband works in Chennai. So, I transferred to Chennai. I didn't feel any love for my husband.

I don't know why. People always think about
Marrying someone you love. Then your life is heaven.
When you don't marry the person you love. Then you feel like dying.
When you marry the person you don't like, that's what real hell is. My life is the same as hell.

Then I asked this guy to meet me in Tambaram station Chennai. We used to travel in the same bus to the house. The only thing that makes me happy is the 15 mins travel time.

When he stands in the bus, there are plenty of seats available in the bus. I also stand with him then I tell him instead of sitting I like to stand with you. He takes me to some park one day. I forgot the name of it. It was a really boring park. But I liked it because being with him itself makes me happy, and I don't care about the place and people around me. He used a big backpack containing a lot of heavy books that he used to prepare for IAS exams. I got those bags from him. It's heavy though, I tell him 'only guys should carry things for girls. Even girls like to carry guys' stuff.'

I took him to a small restaurant to have the missed strawberry ice cream and other things and of course I paid for it.

I fucked up my own life and making my life worse with my husband. Later, he went abroad before Corona. I can't follow him for 1 year. I started to get feelings for my husband. Now I have a one year old boy. My biggest love is my son and my second love is my husband. Now I live happily with my husband and my son.

After 3 years, I got news of my first love getting married from the guy's mother. The guy's mother came to my mother's house with an invitation. She invited me too. I really don't want to go.

I went to his wedding. He is the same as 3 years ago, nothing changed. He is very happy and caring for his wife to- be. The only thing I worried about was that he started working on an IT job again. His dream is shattered. I am upset about how he turned this way.

I am actually happy with my life. Just a fraction of a second. I got the same feeling as before when I saw him. That's it. I don't know, I will be happy if I marry him. Right now I am happy with what I am and what I have...