Matsya

Chapter 21

Serenity lies behind the high walls of fear, take a leap

Manohar spends a longtime at the terrace gazing at the stars ever since he returned home.

Savitri - Making a habit of gazing the stars I see.

Manohar(smiling)- Not a bad habit though .

Savitri - Right, you've been here for long go get some rest Manu.

Manohar - Just a little longer .

Savitri - you seem pretty calm today , anything new?

Manohar - Hmm I met Appa today .
Savitri - What? How is he? But why all of a sudden?

Manohar - He's doing well and uff some questions needed to be answered.

Savitri - Did you get your answers ?

Manohar - pretty much .

Savitri - It's good to see you taking steps to patch things up Manu .

Manohar - yeah I guess .

Savitri - Hmm what are you thinking now?

Manohar - Sanidhi.

Savitri - Is it about her not wanting to meet you ? Don't think too much about it .
Manohar - How can I not think about it? When that's what I want the most .

Savitri - We can only be responsible for what's in our Control, and her not wanting to meet you is not yours .

Manohar - Yes I get it and I don't blame her either may be she has something going on.

Savitri -  May be

Manohar - And I want to be part of it.

Savitri - Manu? What do you mean?

Manohar - I don't know what she's going through but I want to be there for her when needed .

Savitri - Manu you can't force yourself to be part of someone's life .

Manohar - I won't force myself how much I should be a part of it or not is her choice alone , but I need to try .

Savitri - Where is all this coming from?

Manohar- I've been thinking about it a lot, I tried keeping her at a distance trying hard not to bring her to my mess. I failed to see the thing with her around everything felt easier. 

Savitri - Are you sure about all this , what if she's going through something serious why take it on yourself?

Manohar - I don't care if she has a past if my future is with her none of it matters.
Savitri - What if things don't go your way you'll be hurt again.

Manohar - Appa said you miss every chances you don't take and this is one chance I don't want to miss cause honestly the Guilt of her not knowing my feelings for her is far more heavier then me not seeing her or things not going my way.

Savitri - Manu before imagining a life with her you need to know her .

Manohar - I want to know her .

Savitri - How do you plan on telling her all this?

Manohar - I don't know .

Savitri - Hmm, it's getting late let's talk about it tomorrow.

Manohar - Right, Aunty you're still in touch with her aren't you?

Savitri - I've talked to her a few times after she left but that's all . Again Manu is getting late I will talk to you about this.

Manohar - No it's just that she left a full of Diaries and I want to return it to her . Let her know if she calls you .

Savitri - What did you just say ?

Manohar - She's left a few diaries.

Savitri - Manu I need to see it.

Manohar - We can see it tomorrow it's getting late.
Savitri - Manu it might be more important than you think.

Manohar and Savitri proceeds to check the box .

Savitri - As i expected.

Manohar - What do you mean ?

Savitri - Sanidhi I'm breaking my promise .Hmm what I wanted to talk about is right here she wrote about her in those pages.

Manohar -  I must read them ?

Savitri - No you have to know her.