An Unbreakable Bond

Strong For Somebody Else

Synopsis: As much as he wished this could just all stop, he had to stay strong, not for himself, but for somebody else

TW// talks of suicidal thoughts

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He had nothing to live for. The one person he had trusted had betrayed him. And because of his betrayal, now everyone looked at him like he was going to do the same. No one wanted him around.

He would be better off dead...

"Nii-san?"

Bamba was brought out of his thoughts by someone tugging on his sleeve. He glanced over to look at Towa. Towa seemed worried.

"Yes?" Bamba asked.

"Do we really have to leave?"

"Yes. We do."

Bamba couldn't tell Towa anything about why they were suddenly packing up and leaving the tribe. Towa didn't need to know anything about what had happened. He deserved to stay innocent.

"I'm nervous..." Towa mumbled, moving closer to Bamba's side.

"It'll be fine. I'm here." Bamba reassured him, wrapping an arm around him and pulling him into a hug.

"Promise?"

"I promise."

Bamba stared up at the stars above. As much as he wanted to just give up this life, he had someone who needed him still. He couldn't leave Towa behind. Especially without any explanation for why he would do such a thing.

Guess he had to keep going for a while longer...

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Wasn't time supposed to heal all wounds? Why did nothing ever get better? Why did he still feel the same? Why did that day ruin him? He couldn't even bring himself to open up at all to anyone because of the past.

He was pathetic. Everyone would be better off without him around to complicate everything.

Bamba had the thought of leaving Towa with the other Ryusoulgers and just disappearing. Towa would have people to support him still that way. And then he didn't have to keep pretending that he was alright when he was anything but that.

Would Towa hate him if he learned what he wanted to do?

He tried to put the plan into action. Towa and him were spending the night with the others. It was the perfect time to just vanish without a trace. If he wanted to do it, now was his chance.

Towa was asleep on the floor nearby him. Bamba was careful as he got up. He glanced around the room. Did he take anything or did he just go and figure out what to do when he got there? He hadn't planned the next step very well.

He decided it was better to leave things as they were. If they saw what was missing it could lead them to come looking for him. He shouldn't give any indication of what he was doing. He just needed to vanish.

Bamba took a glance at Towa and then left the house. He stood outside, shivering slightly as a breeze whipped by. This was it. If he did this... there wasn't much option to go back.

Where did he even go? Where was a place no one was going to find him? He didn't ever want to found again. Didn't want any of them to know what became of him. How did he do that? Did he just go far away to where they would probably never go? Was that his best option here?