To that boy ( unspoken words)

What are you doing to me?

You again came to my room
With that charming face,
And I felt that urge again
To hold you, to ask you
To stop one last time.

I stammered, reading the question all wrong.
I am a very fluent reader, you know,
But looking at your eyes,
Your proximity, that warm air on my neck,
I felt my neurons diverging,
I lost control over myself.

Your fingers brushed over mine;
I felt my stomach
Turning round like a hurricane.
Your eyes met mine;
I felt my gaze warming at your one glance.

What are you doing to me?
I am not like that.
I am the most focused person I know.
I love to win; losing is what I distaste most.
Why do I want to lose now,
Lose myself to you?

I thought no one could affect me.
I am oblivious to all these things.
But why then am I feeling
It's all wrong, I know.
You and I never...
it's wrong.

Then my heart is protesting,
Telling me to look at it once,
As I always listen to my brain.
It is saying it's not fair at all,
Saying to listen to it
at least once.

But no, it's not possible.
It can't be at all.
You and I belong to different worlds.
I am Raven while you are warm light.
We can't be together
in this life.

Interestingly, I used to search for someone
Intellect enough to decipher my words,
Read between the lines of my story.
You don't even know poetry,
But then why am I feeling...
this love?

You make me laugh and smile at your words,
Here and there I remember your jokes.
You give me the most awkward compliments,
But I laugh at them too, that's not what I am.
What are you doing to me?
will I ever get to know?

~ serenus

A/n ''Is it infatuation or love? I don't know, but what I know is I want to live these moments utmost.''