The deepest part of my soul

Chapter 33

The next morning Shannon was no longer by my side when I woke up. I shuffled into the kitchen and found her there, having breakfast with his father.

„Good morning, Shaelynn." Mr. Weaver greeted me kindly. „What can we thank for your presence?"

„She clearly needs mental help." She answered instead of me. „Look at her, Dad! Round, tired eyes and a miserable figure." I didn't even have to speak.

„I don't know what happened, but if you're this depressed because of a man, I suggest you forget about him quickly. I'm a man, I just know." He winked at me and I smiled faintly.

„Come on, Dad!" Shannon grinned at him. „You are a true Casanova. I heard the other day that Aunt Ronda and Aunt Ruth had a fight over you. Dazzle only one woman at a time!" Mr Waiver just laughed.

„Don't worry about that, my dear." He said as he stood up. „Now I'm going so you can take apart the male gender to your liking. It wouldn't be good if I heard about our castration or something like that." And with that, he left us alone while Shannon giggled heartily.

„Coffee?" She asked and I just nodded. „There are also croissants. I went straight to the bakery, just for you, honey." She winked at me like his father before.

„Sorry for being such a terrible company." I muttered, nibbling on my croissant.

„Dah!" She waved. „You had a heartbreak, that's perfectly acceptable." She placed a mug of coffee in front of me.

„I do not have..." I wanted to protest, but she looked at me in a way that I preferred to stay silent.

„And anyway, how many times have you listened to me when I had a problem? Otherwise, this change of roles is quite refreshing. So!" She dropped into the chair next to me. „Just tell Aunt Shannon what happened." She looked at me expectantly.

„I just realized that we don't have a future together, so I broke up with him."

„But what did he do to make you have such thoughts? There must be a reason." She frowned at me.

„Well...he didn't say anything like that before, but after I told him that there was no point in continuing this relationship, he then admitted that he was only interested in my body in the beginning." I bit into the croissant angrily. I can't blame Rhys. I have no right. He wasn't completely honest from the beginning, yes, but neither was I. I have no right, yet I feel so miserable. I don't have the right, but I do have a reason. I didn't leave him because I don't love him, but because it's better for him. I took another bite, even though I didn't know who my anger was directed at. To myself? On him? To Seth? A little bit for all of us?

„Rhys seemed like such a nice guy though." She felt sorry for me.

„He is." I was absolutely sure of that. I've never met a nicer man than he and I don't think I ever will. „But enough about that. What happened to Liam?" Her eyes narrowed.

„I thought he was joking when he said you invited him. But it seems he was serious."

„I'm the one to blame." I admitted it. „I just wanted to give you guys a chance to talk things out. How did it go?"

„Not easily. When I saw him at first, my blood pressure immediately went up. What does he want again? Destroy everything? That's what I thought, and then we started talking honestly. What did we screw up, what should have been done differently. I thought we could be friends again, but he didn't agree with me. He told me that this was not enough and asked me out on a date."

„What did you say to him?" I leaned a little closer.

„Of course, I said yes." She said this as if a negative answer was out of the question. „I want to give him a chance and then we'll see. Maybe it won't work, maybe we'll be together forever. Who knows?" She shrugged. „It's worth a try anyway."