am i the problem? ziggy katz x fem reader (On hold, coming back soon)

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☆°•°smiles fade, but love is as strong as ever°•°☆

Y/n's pov

As the days got colder and the leafs turned brown, i started to miss Ziggy. He didn't visit me after the summer holiday ended, i'm sad about that because he told me he would be visiting often but apparently not.
Yesterday Ziggy had to go to the hospital for a check-up. He didn't say much about it to me but i felt his discomfort when i asked about it.
I know Ziggy is not that type of person who would just talk about his feelings and thoughts openly. He needs to learn that i'll be there for him, he knows but never really comes to me with his emotions or anything whatsoever. i'm very worried at the moment, he didn't call nor message me in about 13 hours now, clearly he didn't want to talk about his visit to the hospital but it can't be so bad right? He wouldn't just ignore me because of it right?
I know he is stubborn and emotionaly unstable, but he wouldn't just ignore me like that? Or he just doesn't want to talk to me about it? I'll visit him soon then, Maybe, just maybe he'll tell me a thing or two about it, aldo i wont expect much coming from him.
So i'm on my way to school now, i left early so i can finish a asignment i need to have done today, which i obviously forgot about doing yesterday since i was to busy with making sure Ziggy was okay.

So i head to his house after i dropped my bag of at home. And right as i walk up his front porch i can see something is wrong, the windows are closed and the curtains are down.
I quickly knocked on the door, it took a while but finally the door opened
'Y/n honey, i didn't think i would see you here again' Evelyn says once she saw me
'Evelyn, how are you doing?' I ask while i'm let into the house
'We're fine, thank you. Would you like something to drink dear?' She says
'Ehm, sure' i say awkwardly as i sit next to the dinner table
'What would you like?' She asks
'Do you have tea by any chance?' I ask
'Ofcourse darlin, what flavour?' She asks while she boils the water
'Do you have forest fruit?' I ask
'Ofcourse dear' she says
'Should i call Ziggy downstairs? I'm sure he'll want to talk to you' she asks
'That would be nice, yes' i say with a slight smile
'I'll call him then' she says before walking to the stairs
'ZIGGY!' She screams up the stairs
'MOM! I'M BUSY!' i hear Ziggy's voice
'Honey, y/n is here' she says
'Coming!' I hear him scream and i hear him running down the stairs
'Y/n? What are you doing here?' I hear Ziggy's confused voice as he sees me
'I'll leave you two now' Evelyn says before putting the tea on the table and leaving the room
'Ziggy why didn't you respond to my messages?' I ask as he sits down
'Oh shit!' He says
'Ehm, please don't freak out. But...'
He says
'What do you mean don't freak out? Ziggy katz you tell me what's wrong right now!' I say mad at him
'Y/n... please don't freak out!' He says with tears
'ZIGGY FUCKING KATZ! you tell me what's wrong or i'll force it out of you!' I say, he was getting on my nerve
'But please stay calm, please i'm begging you' he says with more tears forming in his eyes
'YOU FUCKING TELL ME WHAT'S WRONG NOW! now Ziggy!' I say
'Okay if you want to know so fucking badly!' He shot back at my remark
'I'm fucking dying okay! Are you happy now?!' He screams with tears
'WHAT?! what do you mean? Like legitemately?' I ask not believing him
'I knew you'd freak out, but yes. I will die soon' he says with tears still running down his pale cheeks
'NO! I'm not going to stand by and watch the love of my life die. Never! I'll find a way to keep you alive, i have to' i say in tears now myself
'It doesn't work like that y/n, you can't just prevent me from dying. It's going to happen if you like it or not' he says
'Ziggy please! Let me help you' i say
'You can't save me'

'Y/n dear? Are you alright?' I hear Evelyn's faint voice in the background
'Is Ziggy okay?' I blurt out randomly
'He's alright, why?' She asks
'I just wanted to know' i say
'How about you go up to his room, i'll call you down when the tea is ready to drink' she says
'Thank you' i say
'Oh and please let Ziggy know we have tea ready soon' she says
'I will' i say before walking out of the kitchen and to the stair case
'Ziggy? It's me y/n' i say as i knock on his door
'Coming, one sec' i hear his voice on the other side of the door
'You can come in now' i hear him say

'Alright, i'm coming in then' i say before going into his room
'Hey y/n, how are you?' He asks
'I should be asking you that question' i say
'I'm alright i guess' he says
'And with that you mean you're doing okay so far?' I ask
'Yeah, what else do i say?' He says
'Ziggy? What happened at the hospital yesterday?' I ask him
'Nothing interesting, why?' He asks
'Oh. You know just checking' i say as if it can't be anymore obvious
'Well the blood results aren't in yet so we don't know how i'm doing' he says
'So you actually could be dying but you don't know about?' I say
'Well let's not overexaggerate it' he says
'But say if you are actually dying and i wouldn't know about it? What will you do then?' I ask
'Just spend time with you, i don't know' he says
'But remember you don't know it' i say
'Why are we arguing about this? If i were to die i would've known long ago' he says
'I mean what if you die right now? Who is gonna give me the best kisses ever?' I ask
'I wouldn't know cuz i'll be dead before you can think of that' he says
'Yeah, okay fair point' i say
'Now i'm just happy you're here y/n' he says
'Me to' i say
He gives me a quick but gentle kiss

☆°•°i know a part of you no one else knows, the sensitive side°•°☆

Hope you liked it, sorry for the late update. I'm really busy at the moment, but soon i'll have more time.
(Was sick when wrote this🤒)
Byebye 👋
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