all the things i'll never say

𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆, 𝒍𝒂𝒔𝒕 𝒚𝒆𝒂𝒓

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[verse 1]

i remember chasing you across the grass

i remember laughing at the dirty jokes you had

i remember when we'd talk day and night

but i don't remember when we said goodbye

i remember your favorite songs and your birthday

i remember all the memories that we made

i remember word for word the things you said to me

except the part where you said we aren't talking

[pre-chorus]

oh, and four years of friendship down the drain

neither of us thought it would ever change

from strangers to friends to lovers and now strangers again

is this the end of us?

[chorus]

now i'm holding onto memories and wishing you were here

and i'm wondering how your life has been going this year

thought maybe we would end up as good friends, but maybe it was all just pretend

and now i'm holding onto promises you promised before

and i'm wondering what happened cause it's like i don't know you anymore

now all i know is this time, last year, things were different

[verse 2]

do you remember the day we met

do you remember the first words you said

do you remember that one November night

is it still engraved in the back of your mind?

do you miss all the fighting and teasing that we'd do

getting in trouble while fooling around with you

you made me feel special, now you make me confused

[pre-chorus]

oh, and four years of friendship down the drain

neither of us thought it would ever change

from strangers to friends to lovers and now strangers again

is this the end of us?

[chorus]

now i'm holding onto memories and wishing you were here

and i'm wondering how your life has been going this year

thought maybe we would end up as good friends, but maybe it was all just pretend

and now i'm holding onto promises you promised before

and i'm wondering what happened cause it's like i don't know you anymore

now all i know is this time, last year, things were different

[bridge]

so if i could go back in time to that same night

you know i would've lied and changed my mind

and if i could go back in time to when you asked

you know i'd say yes just to do things differently

just to make this all alright again

[chorus]

cause now i'm holding onto memories and wishing you were here

and i'm wondering how your life has been going this year

thought maybe we would end up as good friends, but maybe it was all just pretend

and now i'm holding onto promises you promised before

and i'm wondering what happened cause it's like i don't know you anymore

now all i know is this time, last year, things were different

[outro]

this time, last year, we were so different

this time, last year, we never thought it'd end

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thoughts & fav line on the first song??

i feel like this song is the first one i wrote that truly felt right, you know?

like i remember everything about this person EXCEPT the part where he said we're not talking because we never really ended it... it was just over, you get what i mean?

things were so different this time last year, huh?

anyways, hope you enjoyed! it's been so long since i uploaded on wp after losing games ahhh. see you next sunday <3

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