all the things i'll never say

𝒔𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒐𝒏𝒔 𝒄𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒆

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[verse 1]

you gave me my first december

and i don't remember it but you do

we watched the snow fall down to the ground

and then the flowers bloomed and i did too

the ocean waves are crashing now

then autumn leaves came fluttering loose

one year then two, then the years flew by, ooh

[pre-chorus]

can you hold me and not let me go?

please just keep and protect me, oh

cause the world is slowly breaking

and everyone is changing

and you can't save myself from all of that

[chorus]

you gave me world, but i'm not your little girl anymore

the fire's burning brighter, and the rain is flooding the roads

you thought you'd have a little more time though

we're both getting older, and the years going faster

if you won't let me jump now then i'll hit the ground

the seasons change way too fast, we'll miss what we had

seasons change all too well, it's too late to turn back now

[verse 2]

you taught me to be everything i am

the years have gone by so fast, damn

i used to dream of growing up and doing things on my own

but now that i'm here i don't wanna be alone

do you think it's ever gonna get better?

the rain is pouring right on in as we speak

and the hurricane is picking up speed

[pre-chorus]

can you hold me and not let me go?

please just keep and protect me, oh

cause the world is slowly breaking

and everyone is changing

and you can't save myself from all of that

[chorus]

you gave me world, but i'm not your little girl anymore

the fire's burning brighter, and the rain is flooding the roads

you thought you'd have a little more time though

we're both getting older, and the years going faster

if you won't let me jump now then i'll hit the ground

the seasons change way too fast, we'll miss what we had

seasons change all too well, it's too late to turn back now

[bridge]

you can't keep me away from blooming

and you can't stop me from crashing

the weather outside is swirling

you can't keep me locked up, you won't save me like that

if you're holdin' me back i'll only crash harder

[pre-chorus]

i know you don't want me to go

and i know you just wanna protect me, oh

but the world is slowly breaking

and everyone is changing

and you can't save me from all of that

[outro]

you gave me world, but i'm not your little girl anymore

the fire's burning brighter, and the rain is flooding the roads

you thought you'd have a little more time though

we're both getting older, and the years going faster

if you won't let me jump now then i'll hit the ground

the seasons change way too fast, we'll miss what we had

seasons change all too well, it's too late to turn back now

mmm, can't turn back now

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ngl i hate this song now. it was good when i wrote it but now it's just ewww askdjfsdlkfjm

idk sometimes i swear my parents are so overprotective like this world is fucked up if you're holding me back you can't save me like that. and the seasons change really fast yk? metaphorically too like things do change before you know and it's gonna be too late to turn back.

eh anyways THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT COMES OUT TONIGHT?!?!? im so flipping excited omgg ahhh. what track are you claiming?? im so excited for so long london not bc of joe and stuff but it just sounds so aesthetic and sad an i live for sad songs. idk they're all gonna be a bop no matter what and watch mother break charts again and spotify while she's at it.

oh wait also!! the bonus chapter of losing games is now in the works. i don't wanna spoil anything but it feels so heart wrenching to write alskdjfsm i feel so bad what did i do to them? why did i do that to them?? the title of the chapter is brother (or maybe it was brother plural but im lazy to check so it's one of them lol) now go cry with me as i finish it ahahahaa. i'm so attached to these characters even though it's a fanfic lmfaoo. also i love writing the chapter because it's depressing lmfaoo so brace yourself!!

welp anywaysss next weeks song is called "burned bridges" and i actually love it sm. here's the teaser:
"we're falling apart like embers, so tell me what're you doing now?"

xoxo, all my love