all the things i'll never say

𝒅𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒈𝒆𝒕

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[verse 1]

are you lying there, three am, on the floor?

alcohol in hand and your back towards the door

are you walking by that park we used to go?

i wish i'd known how this was gonna end

i swear i really thought you were different

but what happened to that boy i met all those months ago?

if this was how it was gonna be, i'm not sure i'd do it all again

[pre-chorus]

now you've left me speechless in my bed

does the thought of me get stuck inside your head?

do you regret giving up the one person who truly cared about you?

[chorus]

when all of this ends

and you're back to being friends with them

don't forget i put you up there

don't forget i made you less scared

don't forget i offered to help and you turned me down, so you don't get to talk now

don't forget that i was always here and you're the one who walked away, so what do you have to say for yourself?

oh, yeah, don't forget me

[verse 2]

honestly, has the alcohol gone to your brain yet?

i would've stayed, if you hadn't already left

cause you were over us before we were even over

do you still believe i was madly in love with you?

not gonna lie, if you were a better person, maybe i would've loved you

[pre-chorus]

but you've left me speechless on my bed

does the thought of me get stuck inside your head?

do you regret giving up the one person who really tried to help you?

[chorus]

when all of this ends

and you're back to being friends with them

don't forget i put you up there

don't forget i made you less scared

don't forget i offered to help and you turned me down, so you don't get to talk now

don't forget that i was always here and you're the one who walked away, so what do you have to say for yourself?

oh, yeah, don't forget me

[bridge]

and you can go around telling lies about me

but hurting people isn't ever gonna heal you

i know it sucks but baby, don't think they'll believe you

how low can my standards go to date you?

lower than the shitty games you've played?

[pre-chorus]

oh, you've got me spiraling in my bed

lines about you are floating inside my head

do you regret breaking an innocent girl who writes songs?

[chorus]

soo, when all of this ends

and you're back to being friends with them

don't forget i put you up there

don't forget i made you less scared

don't forget i offered to help and you turned me down, so you don't get to talk now

don't forget that i was always here and you're the one who walked away, so what do you have to say for yourself?

oh, yeah, so don't forget that without me,

you're nothing.

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i feel like this song is so mean but i was just so pissed off when i wrote it (i was pissed off when i wrote all these songs erm-) side note: guys you don't understand how many swears are in the last song i was so mad and so frustrated over everything bc like you said it was gonna get better. so when? tomorrow? next year? ten years from now?

oh yeah also there's gonna be bonus songs after we're finished hahaha. i finished one today and it's called "once upon a time". dm me if u wanna hear it hahahaahahaha okay im losing my mind and getting sidetracked sorry its been a rough day for no reason

but seriously back to this one it was like without me you wouldn't know any other people cause they were MY friends first. bro really thought they would believe those lies about me smh. and i offered to help--offered to talk and you turned me down so wtf are you on about?

our generation of boys is so fucked idk what to say anymore.

anyways i didn't eat dinner tonight and i feel so lonely and sad idk why sooo hope your day is going better than mine.

next week's song is called "if i die" and here's the teaser:
"and it's harder to explain why i'm sad, so i keep it to myself and smile and laugh"

xoxo love you.