Is It Really Worth It? - A Heartstopper Story

Piss off

Author's note: TW: swearing, sickness, mentions of B*n H*pe . Enjoy!

Charlie

As I say goodbye to Nick and head to my car, I feel extremely nauseous again. I try to ignore it and continue getting my things in the car but all of sudden I taste vomit in my mouth and find myself running back inside to the nearest toilet. "Fuck" I cry into the toilet. " Hey, I thought you were le- oh shit, are you okay?" I feel Nick's arms wrap around me " I d-don't know!" I sob in the toilet. " I'll call work and tell them we can't go in, you get cleaned up and head back to bed." He plants a kiss on my head and brings my face to look at his. "You go in, I'll be fine by myself today." "No, absolutely not. I didn't feel like going into work anyway, so I should be thanking you." " Nick, I'm serious. Go into work, I will be fine." I don't understand why I'm getting so mad but I just can't help him babying me. " No Char. I'll stay here, I don't want you to be alone, please just get cleaned up and go to bed. I'll call work." " Nick. Stop. I will be fine, I don't need you to fucking baby me." At this point, I'm pissed and I feel extremely nauseous again. Today absolutely sucks. " I'm not babying you, you're my boyfriend and I'm yours. Last time I checked this is what boyfriends do for each oth-" And just like that, I'm vomiting and sobbing again. " We might need to see a doctor, this isn't normal and I'm worried about you." Nick says gently rubbing my back " I am fine. Just piss off." I snap. " God, well aren't you just a bottle of fucking joy. Just trying to fucking help." He snaps back while getting up and walking out.

Nick

I have no clue why Charlie is acting like how he is right now. He was fine when we got up and last night but all of sudden we are arguing all while he still feels like crap. I do feel bad for saying what I said and getting up and leaving him still at the toilet, I just didn't know what else to do. As much as he doesn't want me to, I still plan on calling off of work for the both of us. I'm aware he'll get even more pissed off but I refuse to just leave him knowing he might need me. For now I'm headed up stairs and already dialing his work to inform them about his absence.

After about an hour or so, I'm in our bedroom on my phone when the door opens. " How are you feeling? You think we need to see a doctor?" " Don't you have work right now?" Once again in a pissed off voice "No, as I said earlier, I am taking it off to make sure you are okay." I spit back. "Why do you always feel the need to baby me, I am fine." God, what is up with him today? " Like I said earlier, I am not babying you. I am simply trying to be a good boyfriend like I promised all those years ago." I am trying to stay calm but I just can't help it. Before he has the chance to say anything else, I walk out and head to my car. " And where the fuck do you think you're going?" He asks from the top of the stairs "You have made it very clear you don't want me in the house right now, so I'm going to go somewhere I will be welcomed." I'm trying so hard not to cry my eyes out. I hate fighting with him. It hurts so much, I'm quickly putting on my shoes and before I can get a foot out the door, I hear him say: " So much for trying to be a good boyfriend." Before I can say anything he slams our bedroom door. As I get in the car I dial my mom and ask if I can come over, which I got a yes to. 

Charlie

I feel horrible treating Nick like this, I have no clue why I'm doing it, I just keep getting so angry with everything he is saying, I'm also worried where he is going. What if he is cheating? What if he is going over to their house? He sure as hell would be welcomed there. As I'm thinking about this I start sobbing and grab Nick's pillow, holding on like my life depends on it. After a couple of minutes I get a notification on my phone and check who it's from, hoping Nick's name pops up. But instead I see someone's name I thought I would never hear or see again. Ben Hope. The message reads "Hi, I know I'm the last person you would want to hear from but I have news that I need you to hear. Nick is cheating on you." Fear breaks over me and I quickly type: " Stop messaging me, that's not true." He responds almost instantly and says " I have proof, let's meet up so I can explain myself. I don't want him to hurt you even more." I know I shouldn't but I agree to meet up. After a couple of hours, I feel the worst pain in my life in my stomach. Maybe Nick was right about the doctors. I frantically call him but I get no response. I call for about 3 minutes when finally I've had enough and call my older sister Tori. She immediately comes over and takes me to the hospital. " You gonna tell me why Nick wasn't home or why he didn't pick you up?" " I can't right now, it hurts too much" I sob, holding onto my stomach for dear life. Finally after an hour and many tests the doctor comes back in. " So sorry for the wait, Charlie, congratulations. You're pregnant!" The doctor says " B-but I'm a guy, I thought men can't get pregnant?" I look up in fear " Oh, I'm surprised no one's told you this but about 2% of men can and you happen to be a part of that percent. The pain you were feeling was the baby under a lot of stress. Has today been stressful?" The grip on Tori's hand in mine tightens. "Yes, is the baby okay?" I ask worried " The baby is fine, no need to worry. Would you like to discuss your options?" " Could I have some pamphlets? I want nothing more than to go home right now." I'm trying so hard not to cry. "Sure thing!"

A/N: Apologies about this being so rushed, had a crazy weekend and didn't have much time to write this! Thanks for reading!

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