Stray Kids | Omegaverse

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[Jisung]

We hug for some time before I let him slowly go. We just sit there close to each other looking us deep into the eyes. My body moves from itself leaning in and kissing Minho and he kisses me back. It deepens with every second and after some time I lay down and he is on top of me when suddenly the memories come back of all the times I was in such a situation. I freeze and he must realise that something is of with me. He sits me back up and just hugs me. "I didn't want to go to far. I am sorry." He says and I hear little sobs. I feel bad for him. I hug him tightly. "I-I di-" I want to tell him it is not his fault but he interrupts me. "You d-don't have to say anything." He hugs me even tighter. Some minutes later of silence he lets me go stand up and says he needs to go check on something and then walks out of the room.
Why am I like this? Why did I freeze in this moment? I like him to and I kinda wanted it too but my body was frozen and I felt like I was back in this room with these disgusting man. He isn't like them. He is caring, always trying to make me feel better. I feel good around him, save. I don't know, why I reacted like this. I thought I can do it with him but it is probably too early. Will I ever be able to forget what happened or at least move on?
To distract myself of all these thoughts I go downstairs and outside in the beautiful garden to take a walk and get fresh air. It is sunny but with a fresh wind and the flowers and plants look so beautiful. I could stay here forever. It look like in all these fairy tales.

[Minho]

He kissed me first and while kissing I somehow lost the control and we endet up, him laying on the bed and I above him when he somehow froze. I stopped right as I realised it and began to hug him. I tried to show him that it is alright. I feel so guilty. I know his past. I know what he went through but I went further then his comfort zone. How could I go further and let him feel this again. With me. How?
I go downstairs checking on Seungmin and Minhee. The situation there isn't as good as I hoped it would be. She can kill with thoughts and it is good that she had gone crazy after our parents death? All these informations and situations are too much. I go back upstairs. In my room. In my private room. I can't with all this shit. It is all overwhelming me. I feel that it is all to much but-but I can't let them all down. They-They need me. They need something who shows them the right way. Someone who-who knows what he does and what is right.

[Chan]

I wanted to check on Minho but as I walked in his room, no one was there. I searched the whole house but he was no where to be found. I asked everyone I saw if they saw him and where and if they could help me to find him.
Did he went again killing someone? Does he have another killing episode? Fuck where the fuck could he be. I can't even locate his phone.
As I walk in the kitchen I see Jisung in the garden. "Jisung, have you seen Minho?" "No. Why?" "He disappeared again. Could you help us find him?" "Did something happen?" "No I just think he had an awful idea." "Ok. I will also go search for him." I walk again inside moving on with looking out for Minho.

[Jisung]

What happened? Why is Chan so worried? Is Minho where I think he is?
I go inside and upstairs to his room. "Anya, is he in there?" As I ask I get a message on my phone saying yes. "Is he ok?" I ask this time not getting an answer. "Anya, is he ok?" Again no answer. "Anya open the door." Then I get again a message on my phone. 'Your permission from last time isn't valid anymore.' "Anya I don't care for any permission. Open the door. I am worried." The door opens and as I enter the room I see minho sitting on the ground leaning on couch with his knees to his chest and his arms around his legs. I ran to him hugging him. "Shh. It is ok Minho." I say stroking his back. He doesn't react. Is he like this because of me?
I put my hands on his cheeks making him look at me. His eyes are looking like he cried. I rub the dried tears with my thumbs of his cheeks but he doesn't react to any of my actions. "Minho?" No answer. "Anya, what happened?" "I am not all-" "I don't care if you are allowed or not. Tell me what happened with him." "He entered the room not saying anything and sat down like you found him." Anya answers. "Minho, what happened? Is it because of me?" Still no answer. I can't bring anybody in here. He said this is his secret and I won't change that.
I take him by his arm and drag him outside, sitting with him on the ground in front of the bed. "Anya write Seungmin from me that he should come directly into Minho's room." I say, hugging Minho and stroking his back. After two or three minutes I hear someone knocking on the door. "Come in." Seungmin comes in. "What hap-. Oh no. Not again." "What does again mean. Seungmin what is happening with him." He sights and asks me "Did he tell you about her?" "His sister?" I ask back and he nods. "Yes." I assure him. "Also about her mental state?" I nod and he continues "Minho has also a mental 'problem'. When all around him is to much he just zooms out." "And how can we bring him back?" "Wait here. I will go take something." He walks again out letting me alone with Minho.
So it is partly my fault that he is in this state? Can Seungmin help Minho? Taking him out of this state? Will Minho be the same as before?
Seungmin comes back with a glas with liquid in his right hand and pills in his left one. "Hold this please." He gives me the glas. "Minho, this is Seungmin. You know what we are doing know, don't you. Like the last times, so open your mouth." Minho doesn't open the mouth. "Oh so it's is heavier?" Seungmin takes Minho's head in his hands and does something. Minho's mouth opens and Seungmin puts the pills in his mouth taking the glas and giving Minho the liquid. "It will take now a bit time until the pills will work. If his state doesn't change in 30 minutes write me again." "Ok." Seungmin walks again out and I just sit there hugging Minho.
Will he get better and back to normal? Is this my fault because of what happened earlier?