The Love We Left Behind

Chapter 5

I don't know what to feel.

I just admitted to myself that I like her, I do like her.

We continued to hold each other's hand, cherishing the moment without uttering a word. Sitting together on the edge of my bed, our bodies leaned against the wall, and my head rested on her shoulder. No words coming out from our mouths but our action speaks louder. There will be times that she'll hold my hand tightly and draw circles on it.

As we sat there, our fingers intertwined, I couldn't help but feel a rush of emotions. The warmth of her touch sent tingles down my spine, and my heart fluttered in my chest. This simple act of holding hands meant more to me than words could ever express.

Her grip tightened, and I looked up at her, our eyes meeting. There was a softness in her gaze, a tenderness that made my heart skip a beat. It was as if she knew the storm of emotions swirling inside me, and she was there to provide comfort and support.

“Are you okay?” I whispered, my voice barely audible.

She smiled and slowly nodded, “I am,”
and the moment she said that my heart melted because of gentle and soothing voice.

Time seemed to stand still as we sat there, basking in the warmth of our connection. The world outside faded away, and it was just the two of us, lost in our own little bubble of happiness.

Kinabukasan sa school ay hindi siya nakatabi sa amin dahil kina Claire siya nakatabi dahil medyo nagtatampo na raw dahil sa amin na palagi ni Niña nakadikit, I laughed when she told me that.

Ano naman?

“Madam, masyado kang halata.”

Napalingon ako kay Niña ng marinig ang sinabi niya. Kumunot ang noo ko ng makita siyang nakangisi sa akin.

“Ha? Bakit?” takang tanong ko.

“Kanina ka pa nakatitig kina Sam, nagseselos ka ba?”

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko matapos niyang sabihin 'yon, “What? No!”

“Ay,” natawa pa siya bago umiling, “Defensive?”

Bahagya akong napanguso sa sinabi niya saka tumingin kay Sam na ngayon ay tumatawa, anong nakakatawa?

“Hindi kaya,” mahina kong sagot saka tumingin ulit kay Niña, “Bakit naman ako magseselos?”

“Aba malay ko sayo, bakit nga ba?”

“Wala nga, wala namang dahilan.”

“O kung wala ayusin mo ‘yang mukha mo, kanina pa kita pinagmamasdan ante. Umiiba timpla ng mukha mo kapag nakikipagtawanan si Sam doon sa isa, grabeng ka-possessive, ah. Hindi ikaw ‘yan.”

Hindi na ako nakapagsalita pa sa sinabi niyang iyon kaya naman kinuha ko ang maliit kong salamin at tiningnan ang sarili ko. Hindi naman, ah? Kinuha ko na lang ang liptint ko at nag re-apply dahil nawala na yung una kong nilagay.

But I guess Niña was right.

I couldn't help but steal glances at Sam whenever I had the chance. Naiinis ako.

Ano bang pinag-uusapan nila? Bakit mukhang masayang-masaya siya? I can also make her laugh!

Nasa tambayan kami ngayon dahil katatapos lang ng klase namin at sa amin na sumabay si Sam, I even saw a protest in Claire's eyes when Sam said na she'll be with me...us.

Rice with burger steak ang binili ni Niña samantala ay veggie balls lang ang binili ko, nilagyan ko 'yon ng tereyaki sauce at suka dahil nasasarapan ako sa ganon. I also bought mango graham drink while Sam said she have baon kaya hindi na siya bumili.