Am I Alone?

6/26/15

I wake up to the sound of people rejoicing out in the waiting room. I throw on my sweat pants and had out to see what's going on. i hear the reporter on the t.v say "That's right you guys gay marriage is legal in all 50 states!" I grin as i hug some nurses and doctor's i know. I smile and hug a random pair of lesbian couples out of shear happiness. I want back to the room with huge grin plastered on my face. I sit down and think about a wedding between me and Jc. Where he wears the white suit and i wear the black suit. How we'd have to divide the boys to etch side of us as our grooms men. How funny it would be if we made Connor the flower girl and how happy our families would be. I start to giggle as i hear a small, dry voice say "Kian?" i snap back around faster then you could say SuperKian13 and with that i catch some brown eyes gazing up at me. "Jc!" i yell as i hug him. "What the hell is going on!?" Jc says as he hugs me back. "It's a looooong story baby" i say and with that i peck his cheek. Jc blushes then looks around at the room where my stuff is sitting everywhere. "Why are we here?" Jc asks as he pouts his lip. "You're here because you got hurt and i stayed here so you wouldn't get hurt again" i say as i wipe a tear off my cheek. "Kian you don't have to protect me" Jc says as he wipes the tears off my face. "I don't have to but i want to Jc! I want to be the one who is always there for you, the one who will catch you when you fall. The one who will be the shoulder to cry on and be the person to vent to!" i say as i stroke Jc's face. Jc just smiles. He grabs the back off my neck and pulls me down into a kiss, i kiss back are lips are chapped but it was still the best kiss i have ever had. It was a relief a weight lifted off my shoulders. In the middle of us kissing my favorite nurse comes in, i break the kiss and look at her and blush. "Mr. Caylen we are glad to see you have woken up and we will let you out in 3 days tops, tomorrow as many guest as you wish may come over. Any question or concerns" she says in her peppy voice. "Yeah, how did i get hurt?" Jc says in a confused tone of voice. "Umm well perhaps this is a story Mr.Lawley should tell you" she says as she leaves the room. Jc's face turns towards me as he raises his eyebrows as if he was telling me to go ahead and say it. "Let's start it off with this I'm sorry" i say as i bit my bottom lip "Ookay" Jc says drawn out and confused. "Okay so we had a thing happen, like,well how do i put this" Jc just looks puzzled. I finally found the words and explained everything (I would type this all out but ya'll know the story).
"How mad are you at me?" i ask Jc as i bounce my leg frantically "At you? Umm a little. You did break my heart, but i get why. You were scared and hell i get it, but who i'm really mad at is me. I was selfish for trying to kill myself as all my friends worried about me and oh my god what about Mommy and my little siblings!?" he says as his voice worries more and more. "Well they are aware of what happened but the decided not to fly up here and they're waiting for you to call them and tell them your awake. Trust me i worked out everything" i say assuring him. "Wishbone?" Jc says lifting his one eyebrow "The boys got it!" i say smiling. "Thanks" Jc says with a smirk. I pick up the laptop and pull up skype "Now call your mom she's worried sick babe". He nods as i quietly walk over the the bathroom with my clothes as i go to take my shower. I hum softly in the shower as i wash my hair in the shower. The bathroom door opens up "Hey!" i squeal Jc peeks around the corner" It's just me. I just got to piss" he chuckles lightly. "Okay" i say sheepishly as i close my eyes and rise my hair out. I hear Jc finish "Now don't flu-" and right as i was about finished Jc flushes "THE TOILET" i scream as the hot water hits my back without second thought i jump out of the shower. Jc's eyes widen as he looks down "damn it!" i say as i grab a towl and wrap it around my waste "I've seen you all the way down to your boxers...but dang this is a new level" he chuckles as i get red in the face. i turn around and test the water i unwrap the towl and go to get back in as he walks out of the bathroom. I get out and and start to dry off, i blow dry my hair and get all pretty. I put my misfit tank top, black skinny jeans and my red converses. I walk out if the bathroom to see Jc crying in his pillow. "Babe? What the matter?" I say slowly walking over to Jc. I-i could of died! I could of left all of you and damn it if i'm this selfish maybe it would of been better if i just died" Jc wimpers as he pouts his lip and looks in my eyes. "Stop all the nonsense Jc" i say as i put his face in my shoulder, Jc weeps as all the emotions hit him. "It's okay" i assure him as i pet the back of his tangled curls. Jc lifts his head "Why do you like me so much?" Jc asks me with a tilt of his head. I smirk "Jc you are my best friend, the other side of me. The missing piece to my little fucked up puzzle and i love you!" i smirk as a tear runs down my cheek. Jc just stares at me studying my face when he says one word "Love?" Jc says looking deep in my eyes with those brown eyes "Yes Jc, love" i say grinning. Jc hugs me and kisses my cheek "i love you too KiKi"
And that was the best day of my life. When Jc woke up, forgave me and said he loves me. Could i ask for much more!?