Jc's pov
It has been rough after the comma every time i mention death everyone freaks out and every time i get sad everyone babies me, definitely Kian...but i kinda like it. Every time i get sad he cuddles with me and cheers me up. He tells me every day that he loves me and how handsome I am. He makes me pancakes and never leaves me lonely.
He loves me...and only me and he admits its to the whole world...well not the whole world just our friends and family. My mom said she always knew i had some feelings for guys since i would check out guys at the skate park. I explained that i was bisexual and she said that made a LOT of sense since i was interested in girls still growing up even though in my teenage years i liked boys. It didn't surprise me that she already knew and was so open about it. She is the best mom i could ever ask for! The little ones said it was cool, but the are still a little put off but that's okay they're little. Kian's mom on the other hand...wasn't so happy but we don't really dwell on that part of us coming out.
Everyone from the O2L family was more then happy we came out. Ricky said it was about time. Connor said he was ecstatic and never could be as brave as us. Trevor screamed so loud im surprised i'm not deaf and Sam was just happy for us and a little shocked.
We haven't came out to our fans...but we plan on it. I mean we love our fans but i'm not ready for the negative reactions...and with my emotional state right now i really can't handle that. Anyways i'm glad our true family loves and cares for us so much! I hope people learn it's okay to come out and this world will be accepting if they're gay when i do come out too the world. i hope my fans already know i love them...because without them my world wouldn't be the same as it is now. I would still be working at a shitty ice cream stand selling freezer burnt ice cream to little kids...yeah wouldn't be as fantastic as meeting all these goof balls and having a hell of time making videos and shit. I hope my story has taught you something...that ending your life isn't worth the pain it causes others. I hurt my friends, family and this will hurt my fans when they find out. Trevor started cutting after my attempted suicide...i feel so so bad about that. So if my little story has taught anyone anything its gay is okay and suicide isn't the answer!! I love all you guys and i'll see you guys next time *winks*
A/N
Hey guys this is Emmy and i hope this story ended on an important note. Suicide is not the answer no matter how many times you have thought about it and if any of you guys have thought about it please write me i promise i will try my best to talk you out of it and if you self harm please try not to today. I know it's hard (trust me i am an addict too) but i have gone 6 days clean and i bet you can be just as strong. Be Happy Stay Happy ~Love Emmy (Ps. Look for a sequel coming out soonish called I Am Not Alone)
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Am I Alone?
Fanfiction"Am I Alone?" This question dawns upon Jc Caylen as all of his friends get a girlfriends while he's still single. (This will be in his perspective.) (Spoiler********************************* it's a Jian Fanfic)
