I stand in front of the mirror at myself. A useless piece of crap is all i see anymore. Not a funny or handsome guy just nothing, another human taking up precious air from others. I grab the razor off of my night stand and slit my wrist slowly. Kian bust in my room "Hey Jc i can't find my keys..." He pauses and look at my wrist and my other hand with the razor in it. "What the h*ll Jc!" he grabs the razor out of my hand. "You are more then this!" he hugs me tightly as i put my head on his shoulder, i begin to cry. "It's okay Jc" Kian whispers as he runs his pale hands through my thick hair. After a good amount of time of hugging he lets me go. I look up into his soft eyes "Thanks Kian i really needed that" I smirk at him. "You're going to get through this okay" Kian softly says to me. I nod as he leaves the room. My heart races as the smell of him lingers. Am i falling for him? It's probably me just being depressed and out of whack. I mean i'd never have feelings for a guy...would I?! Later that day. I put on my Chiddy Bang sweatshirt on, throw my green sweat pants on and grab my keys and go to get Taco Bell. Kian runs after me as i go to walk out the door "Wait for me!!" i stop at the door still facing it. Kian jumps on my bike "I wanna go wherever the heck your going!" i chuckle "I'm just going to Taco Bell" I say opening the door with him still on my back. "Even better" Kian says laughing as he climbs off my back. Funny thing is i could have him cling on to me like that forever...it felt so right. Kian hops into the car. "Jc i need to tell you something in privet" Kian says in a serious tone "Yeah man what is it?" i ask confused at what he was talking about. "I love you man!" Kian says with his checks pink. "I love you too" i say chuckling thinking he meant it in a friendly way. Kian looks at me with a straight face "No i mean love-love Jc". I get flustered "Oh...i mean..I love you too in that way too ...but i was afraid to tell you" I look out the window. Kian kisses my cheeck. I saw fireworks and rainbow and my eyes light up. But then i was hit with reality "What about Tatyana Kian!?" Kian shrugs his shoulders "i love her too but i love you more, so i don't know". I act calm but deep down i'm jealous of Tatyana.
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Am I Alone?
ספרות חובבים"Am I Alone?" This question dawns upon Jc Caylen as all of his friends get a girlfriends while he's still single. (This will be in his perspective.) (Spoiler********************************* it's a Jian Fanfic)
