Regretful Love | 𝐉.𝐉𝐊 𝐅𝐚𝐧𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧

Chapter 13 | Paint it Black

In back of my mind you died

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I looked over to the empty side of the bed as my hands slowly grazed over the sheets, they were cold and void.

I always had the fetish of sleeping while hugging someone. This was one of the tendencies I got after surviving from my Schizophrenia.

I usually slept beside with my brother, or Sister Iseol. Then after marriage, I had him sleep beside me so it was inevitable to not feel cold after seeing an empty bed beside you.

But, I will get used to it,
because there is no other way to get over it.

I already have done enough damage to him, I do not want no more to cause him any harm.

Though, I am still uncertain about leaving hoon with him, But that is the only condition I knew he would put up.

I did not expect him to say such words though. But let it be, he is just a player who knows how to win a game and I or my feelings are not a joke nor a game with which he can play.

I do not mind being his emotional support but I do mind being played and toyed with.

I just can not with that !

I sighed as I stretched my arms before stepping out of the bed.

I made my way outside to the kitchen, I went towards the refrigerator as I pulled a bottle of wine along with few strawberries.

Grasping the cold bottle in my hand I made my way towards my room, I kicked open the door as my both hands were busy with the things.

" Let's loosen up a bit " I chuckled speaking to myself as I opened the bottle. It was a French wine, everything oddly seemed alright to me all of sudden.

I shrugged my shoulders as I gulped the first gulp of my wine, It tasted exotic as the taste melted my taste buds slowly sliding down.

I could feel the cold liquid passing down my food pipe, as the sensation was too strong to be ignored.

As soon as the wine entered my system, I could feel the adrenaline kicking in as I felt a sudden rush of emotions.

Unbeknownst to me, the wine that I brought with me is a stronger one than what I had imagined. My vision started to get hazy.

I could feel my head spinning against my skull striving hard not let it dislocate.

I gulped few more sips as now my vision was gone and I felt everything around me flying here and there. I gasped before rushing out of my room.

I stood in the kitchen as I took out a bottle from the refrigerator before throwing some cold water on my face.

Finally, things are down now ! But why do I feel like I am the one who is flying right now ?

" Hehe, Yniee you so silly " I stomped on my feet as I picked my phone as a plan to get his sign came to my mind.

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" That fucking wine, thank God Jungkook was not here or else he would have think of it as another of schemes of mine. " The mumbled while rubbing her eyes which still had some white sticky substance in them.

She grinned as she saw her wallpaper, it was a picture of her when she held Hoon for the first time.

The pain was back hammering her head, as she felt the pain of her heart to her head.