Hidden Self (a DSMP school au)

Chapter 4

TWs: shouting (basically Tommy being his online persona but irl), slight panicking, indirect mention of death and Ed (eating disorder)
3rd Person POV

The three spend the rest of the school day together, always meeting up after each class. And with that, Lucy was part of the little group.

She didn't think of her home life at all when she was with the boys. They had much fun together and thankfully they didn't ask anything about her family or what she was doing after school. They just kept joking around and including her as if she was part of the group since they were little kids.

"Wait what?! You don't know what Minecraft is?!", Tommy shouted. "Tommy, be quieter!" Tubbo lightly scolded him. Tommy was still in shock: "So you've never heard of Minecraft before?" "Umm... No?", Lucy mumbles confused. "Should I?" "Oh no", Ranboo muttered. "YES YOU SHOULD IT'S THE BEST GAME TO EVER EXIST HOW COULD YOU NOT KNOW MINECRAFT?!", Tommy screamed. A couple of people in the cafeteria were now staring at them but most of them were used to Tommy's yelling. "Tommy, shut it. Lucy, do you have a phone or a pc? Or do your parents maybe have a pc you could use?" Tubbo wanted to know. "I don't have a phone nor a pc and my dad doesn't have a pc as far as I know..." "What about your mom?", Tommy insisted to know. Ranboo kind of watched them just interact, trying to figure out why he hasn't seen Lucy before but he waited for the right moment to ask. "Oh- umm- my mom- she- She is- isn't here.", Lucy whispered. "She's gone- She won't come back- She can't help me fix him- She isn't-", Lucy quietly began to panic but was soon interrupted by Ranboo while Tommy and Tubbo just watched with confusion on their faces. "Hey- Hey Lucy. Calm down, you don't have to tell us right now, we understand if you can't talk about her. I want you to know that if anything is wrong, you can talk to us, you can take your time getting to know us better and don't feel pressured to say anything. It seems like something personal, we won't ask further questions", he calmed her down but glanced at the other two when saying the last bit. "Sooooo... Do you maybe have time after school to come to my house so I can show you Minecraft maybe?" Tubbo asked carefully after Lucy calmed down and Ranboo went back to his seat. "I don't- I'm sorry and also I'm sorry for freaking out, I still wish my mom would come back, but she is gone for around a year now and won't return. Like ever.", Lucy now feels bad for the others that they had to calm her down and she silently swears to herself that she'll never let them see her like that again or else they might suspect something. "No no no, don't be sorry, someone else should apologize", Tubbo slightly nudges Tommy while Ranboo speaks. Tommy speaks up now:"I'm sorry, I didn't know what happened and I didn't mean to trigger you", he said, now sad he didn't realize earlier that something was wrong and regretting that he didn't help. He now planned to look at Lucy more to make sure this doesn't happen again.

Soon enough Tubbo and Tommy started bickering again while Lucy just played around with her food and didn't eat anything. But of course Ranboo noticed that. "Everything alr-" he started but soon got interrupted by the bell. They threw away the rest of their food and each went to class, sadly Ranboo wasn't able to ask Lucy what's on her mind since they had different classes but he soon forgot about it.

A/N:
This chapter was... something. Also I'll do small author notes at the ends of some chapters if I feel like it. And sorry for not uploading in a while, been questioning some things about myself and school's been exhausting lately. And also I'm finishing this chapter at half past 11 in the night, writing everything on my phone while watching Tubbo playing DnD with some friends on YT. Please bare with me and stay tuned for the next chapter, it may be coming soon (I don't even know myself when I'll have the motivation but still)

It'd be cool to have some feedback on what you think of this so far or if you find any spelling errors and maybe I'll correct them :)

Have a nice day/night/morning/evening everyone! Take care! <3
~Ash (your author)