It's Okay

"They say its a matter of time..."

-Go Solo, Tom Rosenthal 

In this moment, my world is a series of strobe lights, flashing so it made everything appear jagged. This with the mixture of music is the perfect dancing scene. And then I add you into this mix and that completes it. Just looking up at your face. Just knowing your close, even if you don't want to dance. My body is experiencing a 1000 emotions and I have no idea if you feel the same. I'll never know if you feel the same. So what the hell.

After a while, you want to go down to sit on the beanbags and we do. It didn't take you long to put your head in my lap, and it just felt like the worlds most normal occurrence. After a while I realized my hand was running itself up and down your arm and then it found its way to your hand. Then, someone decided to throw up behind me. Perfect romantic settings.

We went outside to find my friend, and it was freezing. My whole body was shaking. And you, being Mr superman, pulled me into your arms to warm me up. But when we went back to dance, you kept trying to hook me up with someone, and I had no idea what to think. I still don't. Do you like me, or not. What about your recent ex. Whom its apparently complicated with.

And then we went back with Aidan and the rest of the guys to go sit down for a bit. Again, his head went straight into my lap. We talked and giggled, Smith had his legs over mine. Aidan grabbed his shoe and attempted to hide it, before she realised he's twice her height.

"That's payback for every time you stole my shoes" I shouted at him

I couldn't imagine a place where I'd be happier. I sat on the floor to dig in my bag and he sat behind me and put his arms around me. It was then that I realised that this would end tonight. It's the last time I'll ever be in his arms like that. I pulled out my brush and handed it back to him since its not what I wanted and carried on. He started brushing his hair, and then mine, being all silly. And then he had to go, and I walked with him and it was over. And I'm okay with that. I didn't tell him why I didn't want to hook up with some guy. It's because the only guy I wanted didn't want me. Now its time to move on, and it's okay sunshine.