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Wall to wall, window to window, between one Ghoul to the other, I paced. The action was enough to put a permanent rut through the floor in my wake, a true sign to my obvious anxious state. Omega and Aether watched me cautiously, hands behind their backs and at attention while they waited for my next word. None could come to mind, not a single stream of consciousness could I rest myself on the bank of. I was far too impatient, my body and mind in complete overdrive as I went between my work duties, church duties, and Veda. She clouded all vision, taking up too much space in my mind despite her current absence. I had sent Dew after her nearly forty five minutes ago and he has yet to return with her.
Dew had a type, and he let it be well known that he did. Curious, full of questions, doe-eyed, dressed in black and wrapped in sin, everything that Veda was. It was dumb decision on my part to send him after her having known of his interests and his tendency to tease the newer children of the congregation, but he too also knew of how I felt regardless of if I would admit it or not. It wasn't like I had to anyways, I'm sure the whole Clergy knew at this point and was giving me more tasks just to keep me away from her. But, to think my own Ghoul would go behind my back and betray me... it was a horrid concept to conjure, but one that stayed screaming in my mind nonetheless.
"Papa." Omega had finally put a stop to my pacing, pushing one of his hands into my chest and keeping me in place.
"What?" I snapped, glaring up at the Ghoul with fire in my eyes and acid on my tongue. However, he wasn't phased.
"Relax yourself, Dew will be here any second with Sister Veda." He spoke softly, trying to console my worries.
"It is not like the dormitories are far from here, I do not know why it is taking so long." I groaned, taking a step back and moving away from the Ghouls hand.
"Maybe he's giving her a better tour of the Ministry?" Aether replied, poking into the conversation to offer some insight.
"I am sure they will be here soon." Omega added, knowing Aethers words didn't hold much merit. I was to be the one to show her the Ministry, a task I had yet to complete, but mine nonetheless.
Sighing deeply, I took in a deep breath and released another. Being in such a state of worry and irritability wouldn't be the best way to present myself once Veda was to return, it was bad enough I let her see more of that this afternoon. Hardly ever, if not never, did I have a child refuse what I thought was a welcoming touch. She had accepted my hands before, yet after Swiss had arrived, it was as if my hands had burned her. I don't think I'll ever forget that look on her eyes; agitated yet almost fearful. There was nothing to be afraid of in my perception, all I was doing was asking her if she had felt the same thing I had, though I may have gone about it the wrong way. Maybe she isn't used to physical contact, or maybe she isn't frightened of the situation, but of me.
"You two can go grab your dinners." I groaned, crossing my arms over my chest and accepting my small defeat for the time being.
"Thank you, Papa." Omega bowed quickly, Aether doing just the same before the both of them had left me again.
If it weren't for the knots forming and tightening in my stomach, I would have joined them. I hadn't eaten since breakfast this morning and couldn't find the appetite to indulge in a dish I was truly excited for. I wanted Veda to be here, so I can show her the kitchen and all of the options we can prepare for her. I wanted to watch as the fear slipped from her gaze and she got truly comfortable, something I had only seen from her once today, and it was not in my presence. I don't know what it was about the Ghouls that had made so many children like her comfortable, quick to trust a partial demon from hell rather than myself and form some bond. This was probably the reason they were taking so long, slowly meandering through the halls and talking of their day, getting closer and closer by the second. Hells, I should have gone and retrieved her myself.
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Object of Desire
FanfictionThe life of a young half vampire from England is soon to begin, twenty five years of living in her fathers shadow has made her cautious and careful in every aspect of life. Town to town, city to city, she's always made it a point to act with much th...