Ke'Ari, everything is about her. She done been through so much but she got a handful of people there for her. What happens when the most important one dies?
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SATURDAY JULY 24TH BIRMINGHAM, AL KE'ARI POV:
Hey guys. Yall missed me?
They did not.
Fuck up Key.
After my break down, Jeshawn has been pampering me. I really do appreciate it. I've cried a couple of times since then.
He held me and let me cry. He let me talk and just listens. He responds when necessary and I thank him for it.
He took me to withdraw some money yesterday so I can pay the bills and stuff. I did that and came back home.
Safe to say I've went back into the habit of just wanting to be at home. Jeshawn said it was okay tho and it would just take time.
I feel weak man.
You been that.
Shut the fuck up cause you're the reason why.
Womp womp nigga.
I literally oughta just die. I be thinking about it often. I don't wanna make Jeshawn sad if he felt that way. I wish I could die temporarily to see how it would affect everyone.
I feel like I did all that talking the other day and voicing how I just wanted to be myself just to say I wanna die today.
I feel like an attention seeker. Maybe I do better building up my emotions.
Ion know really. I'm lost and can't be found. Cause I been tryna find myself.
Jeshawn was up. He was letting me sit in his lap against him. I've become more physical over time.
Not just with him, with Cam, Cash, and Demon too. I try not so much with them because ion wanna seem clingy and annoying.
I just give a hug whenever I leave them. It make me feel better. I'm always under Jeshawn. He doesn't mind, at least I don't think he does
On to something more positive, I ordered him a U-haul to move his stuff. He was saying yesterday how he wanted to go ahead and move in.
I think I was holding him back. I ain't wanna be like that no more.
"Bae." "Yes baby." "I ordered a U-haul today so you could move your stuff." "I told you I could get it." "I know but I wanted to do it for you."
