WHO ARE YOU?

NOBODY GETS ME

Y/n smiled and waved at the people, she was at a charity event, so many people were there and just for her, she was surprised, people responded very well on her being queen, she had been told by the people that run her Social Media that people were happy it was her and not her brother

"Y/n!! Y/n!! Can I get a picture?" A girl said smiling widely while she blushed, Y/n smiled at her kindly nodding "Thank you for being here, i hope you enjoy the event" Y/n said softly at her, The girl nodded quickly feeling starstruck

Y/n was tired, as she sat down at the special invite table, she really wasn't talking to anyone, her mind quickly wandered off to Jenna, was she okay? It was cold in Romania, was she keeping warm?

"Your majesty, it's time for your speech" Her guard said, Y/n nodded quickly standing up, flashes quickly lighting up the room, everyone paying close attention to her, she tapped the microphone making sure it was on

"Testing...testing" She said a bit clumsy making everyone laugh, she cleared her throat with a smile

"Hello, thank you all for being here today, I'd like to start by saying that your time here will not be lost, Comic Relief is a british charity. Their vision is to live in a just world, free from poverty. they believe that those closest to the issues have the best solutions....."

At the end of the day Y/n found herself in her room, she was taking a shower, she stood there under the water, shutting her eyes, She couldn't feel it but she was crying, the water washing away the tears, it had been like this since Jenna and Her had broken up... the feeling in her chest eating her alive every single day

Nobody gets me like you
How am I supposed to let you go?
Only like myself when I'm with you

She had spoken to so many people... She tried to joke around but...it came of a bit awkward but nobody compared to Jenna, her beautiful mind, the way she said things...her voice... she could only be really her with Jenna, of course she gave the public a bit of her, but not fully, Jenna had met her, her real self, All she could think about is if Jenna was with her she would've gotten the jokes she said, she would've laughed, she would've made fun of her in someway or said something sarcastic, she missed her so much 

Jesus...Jenna was impregnated in her like a tattoo

Y/n stepped out of the shower, staring at herself in the mirror, her eyes were red, they were always red every time she came out of the shower, she grabbed a shirt that Jenna had left, slipping it on, as she made her way to her bed, she just wanted to sleep, she was to tired, to drained, to sad...She lost her mother and she lost her girlfriend, all to much was happening

She clutched on the shirt as she shut her eyes, Jenna flashing in her mind, she could only see her, she loved closing her eyes because of that

I don't wanna lose what's left of you

She let out a small cry, she held on to every single memory , she knew every detail, every word that was said, every hug, she could feel, every kiss, she could taste... a bittersweet embrace of the past that offered fleeting comfort amidst the pain.

She opened her eyes as she stared at nothing, her room completely dark "Fucking hell" She said as she sniffled, was Jenna thinking about her too?

"No...she probably forgot about me by now" Y/n said to her teddy bear that was next to her with a frown "I'm to busy to even remember you my bloody fucking ass" her lip quivered as she suck in a deep breath, Now in her mind Jenna had made excuses to end it with her...how could you be so busy that you forget about someone? Or did she understand incorrectly?

"Does it even bother her that we don't talk at all anymore...? Why is it so easy for her ? i'm dying to call her...i'm dying to text her " She grabbed her stuffed bear as she still cried, hugging it tightly

"I need to let go..of this false hope that she'll change her mind and come back to me because I don't think she's coming back..." Her voice cracked even more...