Caroline couldn't believe how much has changed. Almost a year ago she had given up on love and now she had met Jacob, and couldn't have been happier.
She used to think that love never worked out, that all it did was break and burn and end.
But yesterday proved her wrong. It showed her that she didn't have to give up because of those horrible relationships she'd had in the past.
Caroline didn't want to be too optimistic because she didn't want to jinx anything, but this was different, she had never felt this way about anyone else. It was as if she was watching it begin again.
She remembered every little thing about Jacob that made her fall for him even more. How he laughed at her jokes, even though they weren't that funny, how he opened the door for her, without even thinking twice about it.
When she got up the next morning, she made her way towards her music room, which was a room in her house she dedicated to her songwriting. When everything seemed hectic in her life, she found peace I'm writing music. Her music room was exactly the way she wanted as she didn't let anyone else go inside it. It felt personal to her like letting someone inside would be like letting someone read your diary.
She sat on the floor with a pen and her notebook filled with unfinished songs and began to write.
She spent ages working on the lyrics, finding the wrote chords, crossing out lines and rewriting them, until she thought it was perfect. She picked up her guitar and began to play a song she had titled 'begin again'.
"Took a deep breath in the mirror He didn't like it when I wore high heels But I do
Turned the lock and put my headphones on He always said he doesn't get this song But I do, I do
I'd walked in expecting you'd be late But you got here early and you stand and wave I walk to you
You pull my chair out and help me in And you don't know how nice that is But I do
And you throw you're head back laughing like a little kid I think it's strange that you think I'm funny Cause he never did I've been spending the last eight months Thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end But on a Wednesday In a cafe I watched it begin again
You said you never met one girl who Had as many James Taylor records as you But I do
We tell stories and you don't know why I'm coming off a little shy But I do
And you throw you're head back laughing like a little kid I think it's strange that you think I'm funny Cause he never did I've been spending the last eight months Thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end But on a Wednesday In a cafe I watched it begin again
And we walked down the block to my car And I almost brought him up But you start to talk about the movies That your family watches every single Christmas And I wanna talk about that And for the first time, what's past is past
And you throw you're head back laughing like a little kid I think it's strange that you think I'm funny Cause he never did I've been spending the last eight months Thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end But on a Wednesday In a cafe I watched it begin again"
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Caroline always had trouble talking about her feeling and trying to express them, but she found that she could always write them out in a song. So that's what she did.
She wrote 'begin again' to show Jacob how much she really appreciated him and to tell herself that it could all work out in the end.
And who knows, maybe she'd end up writing more songs about him.
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OH MY GOD the tortured poets department is so so amazing AND A DOUBLE ALBUM I LITERALLY DIED DEAD
