my 3 a.m. thoughts

the one where i almost believed you were mine

little did you know, i was falling for you.

it was hard for me to not; but it was a beautiful feeling.

i had the excitement to wake up every day,

life was rainbows, pastels and sunshine,

your smile made me glow,

every action of yours made me happy,

fuck that, every mention of you, every little reminder of you still leaves me like a 14 year old teenager in love.

our hands glide against each other's and i always have that crimson red shade,

you'd talk to me with those eyes, hug me tight, and hold my hands,

you'd kiss me like i've never been loved before,

you'd leave me giddy for the whole week but, why?

why did you have to make me believe that i was the one for you?

because if you hadn't, if you hadn't made me believe i am the one for you,

if you didn't abandon me that day leaving me hopeless,

maybe, just maybe, my heart would still go on.

my heart would probably still be beating, not in pieces anymore.

but the irony is; the broken bits, radiating a dim gleam, still loves you.

even after all that you've done to me.

-shreyy