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( ♰ ) . • ˚ ━━ BAD RELIGION !
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When I was with Choso, I felt like the world was quiet. The feeling was comparable to the best highs I had ever had, maybe even better. Even if we were completely sober I felt high. It was like I was high off him, corny as that is to say.
Being around him brought about emotions I had never thought I would be able to experience. It was bad, actually, it was downright horrible. The emotions I felt around him weren't emotions you were supposed to feel around a friend.
How had he done it? Snuck up on me and introduced me to this life, a life I felt was worth living. For a long time, I was indifferent to death. Thought it was something bound to happen, it didn't matter if it came sooner or later. But now I find myself wanting to live. Not just because of him, but the promise of it getting better with Choso by my side.
It was stupid. I was stupid. I had known the guy all but three months and I felt like I had known him all my life. What did he expect, looking like that? Acting like that. Making me feel whatever the hell this is.
I don't know how much longer I could do it. Pretend that I was content with being nothing more than his friend. I didn't even know if he felt the same. But that kiss, that almost kiss. I felt like I was on top of the world, like that moment was all my life had been reduced to and I was okay with it, and we didn't even touch.
