You're my girl [Taeyong ff]

death of a rose cont.

that night I was reluctant to feed hachi, Taeyo and KaMin but they did nothing wrong, so I only fed them but did nothing more for the rest of the week

I don't recall eating, I was in the kitchen a bunch to feed the animals but I don't recall ever feeding myself

that night is the only day I remember taking care of my hygiene or health, I even stopped taking birth control for that matter

on Saturday on my way back to my room from feeding the animals I caught a glimpse of Ari and Yuta's painting
I walked over and took the painting, "why..." I muttered looking at it before placing it on the ground facing it to the wall, I then grabbed Ari by the ear and put her in the corner of the room where I wouldn't notice her

I went back to my room and fixed it up then made my bed, "Yukaya... Melo..." I felt the tears building as I looked at the two plushies, I took them and shoved them to the back of my closet I fucking hate this, why...

hachimitsu came into the room and I took my phone and left for the bathroom, "how am I supposed to take care of her when I can't even look at her" I wiped some of the tears that were escaping, "ughh fuck" I fanned my face then checked my notifications

–remember, at the studio at 4pm– I read the text from Ria and looked at the time it's one right now already, I should get ready
I first brushed my teeth then I took off my shirt but suddenly moved slow as I noticed my reflection and the tears started escaping again right I blankly examined the 3 day old hickeys on my body before turning around and walking to the shower, which I cried in too as I remembered being with him in it

I got out and headed to my room, I sat at my vanity and did my routine then when I looked in the mirror I saw something in the mirror corner I wonder if he has his half still I took the necklace and put it in the drawer, "I hope he did"
after I did my routine and got dressed I headed to the studio

"look who's still alive" Minji teased seeing me near the room

"literally you've been so quiet since Thursday" "boo'd up with Yuta huh"

I froze as I heard Yuna's mention of his name then I just burst into tears, they all rushed over to me worried
"Kaya what's wrong?" "are you sick?" "what happened" "you never cry, talk to us Kaya" they all spoke with concern as I cried, "should we call Taeyong, or Yuta?" "they're in Indonesia, Minji" I just then cried harder hearing their names and they panicked
Yena stepped back and they looked at her, "Yena what's the matter? what's with that look?"

"Kaya unnie, what happened?" she asked with trembling eyes

"Yuta... he broke up with me" I spoke through the tears

"oh my god, why..." "when" "Kaya, are you okay?" "since when??"

"Thursday evening" I pressed my lips together trying to calm myself

"and you didn't say anything?" "have you been all by yourself since then??"

"unnie, please forgive me" Yena's voice was shaky, we all looked to her and a tear rolled down when she blinked

"what for?" I looked at her and she exhaled, "you didn't do anything"

"on Thursday, Yuta asked to meet up to talk about your three month but when he got there he asked me about Taeyong" she pressed her lips together

"what" I stared at her

"he asked about you and Taeyong, but I didn't say anything wrong... he's the one that started saying all these outrageous things about you two and I tried to tell him you wouldn't" her tears started rolling down as she spoke, "he knows you two like each other but I didn't tell him but he made me confirm it, I'm so sorry Kaya" she held her hands over her mouth