Racing dream

Chapter 10 - Overthinking

My biggest enemy: my own thoughts. Overthinking has always been an issue, but these last couple of years, it has become bigger. It became more difficult to get my thoughts just to shut down. Everything in my life became a target. Sports, university, friendship, love, free time.

All the areas from my life get more thoughts than they should. It gets frustrating at some point because I know I should focus only on the aspects I can change. But, of course, it's easier said than done.

Today was one of those days when it simply became louder. My mind feels like a race track, each though battling to get a better position. Some of them are just random things like "I could've said something better when I had that one discussion," pathetic if you ask me. Someone, please just turn my mind off.

Most of the time, I would distract myself by training or sleeping, nothing in between. Since I just woke up an hour ago, it doesn't make sense to go to sleep again. So I decided to work out at home, lifting some weights. It worked,  I didn't realize the time passing. At some point, Lewis joined me to get some stretching done before leaving me alone again.

"Sarah."- I almost screamed when I felt Lewis' hand on my shoulder. "Sorry. I didn't want to scare you."

"Good thing my heart is healthy. Otherwise, I doubt it'd survive that one."- We both chuckled. I turned off the music from my headphones and drank some water.

"I think it's time for a break. You didn't even have something to eat."- I saw some worry in his eyes.

"What you mean? I haven't been here that much time. Besides, I prefer breakfast after the workout."

"Sarah, you've been here for about 2 hours and a half now. Enough for today. Believe me, it's not gonna make any good."

Two hours and a half? Damn, time flies. The good thing is that during all the workout, I stopped thinking, but I knew that as soon as I had a shower and relaxed a bit, it would all come back.

"Well, I had a long break in the middle of my routine. That's why it's taking so long."- I tried lying to him, and soon enough, I realized it wasn't working.

"We both know that's not true. I was here for half your training session, and you didn't stop more than 3 minutes between your exercises."

"It's just that I could get some work done. Tomorrow, I may not have time."- It was clear I was running out of ideas to just stay a bit more without thoughts.

"You don't even know that, Sarah. Let's have some breakfast now, I'm sure your body needs an energy refill."- He almost had to drag me out of the room to get me to follow him to the kitchen.

We spent my breakfast in silence. Lewis scrolled in his phone while giving me some looks to make sure I was actually eating. He looked a bit concerned, but I don't think it was because of what happened before. It wasn't a big deal for me. Even though he was right, my body was thanking me for the food right now. Tomorrow, I'd probably woke up feeling sore.

"Do you that often?"- He asked me when I was about to get up to wash the plate and glass I used.

"Training?"- I wasn't really following the conversation.

"Training for that long, without a proper break. Let's not forget about not eating nothing before."- I sighed while looking down.

"No, usually my workouts are an hour shorter than today."- It was true, but I left out that I don't have a proper break in the middle. "As for not eating, it's just that I don't feel like it."

"You should, even if you don't feel like it. Otherwise, your body won't have enough energy to keep up. It could cause you to pass out. Also, you have to make sure to get the salt and minerals you lose while working out."- He started to explain to me, making sure I was listening to him.