Say Don't Go

S I X

Season 1 Episode 6
[The Next Episode]

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Nate rolled off of Lana and she grabbed the blanket covering her naked body, "That was good. So fucking good." Nate said and kissed her neck softly.

The Motel room was silent other than their heavy breathing, "Yeah. Yeah, good." Lana agreed not looking at him.

She knew this whole thing was wrong. Not only cause she was sleeping with her best friend boyfriend, or not boyfriend. She wasn't sure if they were together, as far as she knew Nate hadn't seen Maddy in days, since the carnival to be exact. But Nate was also a liar, he wasn't gonna tell Lana that Maddy had been to the motel a couple times and that he was seeing her, cause Lana made him feel good. Not just sexually, but physically and maybe even a little mentally.

Lana didn't just go to the motel to fuck Nate though, honestly that was never her intention when she went. She went to be his friend and give him advice, but sometimes they ended up fucking, and other times they ended up going to that little diner that no one ever went to.

She felt guilty for fucking Nate as much as she was, but she couldn't stop. After the first time it happened, she tried to tell Nate it couldn't happen again but she could barley get the sentence out. There was just something about Nate Jacobs that pulled her in and made her want to know who he was. Who he really was.

There was something about Nate that kept bringing her back to him. At first she tried to tell herself that Nate and Maddy were toxic and they were just gonna breakup again, so that what was happening between her and Nate didn't seem half as bad as it was, but she knew that she was wrong for what she was doing.

Maddy loved Nate, No matter how fucked up Maddy and Nates relationship is, she shouldn't be doing this. And she was well aware that.

Lana was staring at the ceiling, "What?" Nate asked. Lana looked at him, "What?" She asked, "What are you thinking about?" Nate asked

"Nothing." Lana sighed, "That's a lie, I can see the gears turning in your head. What is it?" Nate asked

"I just feel bad." Lana admitted, "Why?" Nate asked and played with the end of her hair, "Cause I'm sleeping with my best friends... whatever you are to her." Lana said

"That makes you feel bad?" Nate asked, "Yes, because I have a guilty conscience, unlike some people." She gave him a look

"I have a guilty conscience." Nate said, "No, you don't. You don't feel bad or guilty about anything you do." Lana scoffed a little, "Yes I do, I feel bad about what I did at the carnival." Nate defended himself, "Really? If you feel so bad, why am I here and Maddy isn't?" Lana asked