"Nobody sees, nobody knows.
We are a secret, can't be exposed.
That's how it is, that's how it goes,
Far from the others, close to each other."
- x -
Today was one of those days again. I spent the day just thinking aimlessly and every train of thought ended up on the topic of you. Me. Us. What we'll never be. And when I felt like it was too much, I'd sit down, turn on my laptop and search for the term Larry Stylinson.
Sometimes I'd go on the Tumblr tag, look on the blogs of Larry shippers, or read fanfiction that they had written about us, but today, I looked at the videos.
There is something about the videos that's more painful than everything else- maybe its the music, or the beauty of the editing,or it's the fact that the clips they use are real.
There's not much manipulation.
It's funny how the fans see beyond how things really were, and how they believed our stunts were real, like me. But they weren't, they were just an act. An act that we thought was funny, just to provoke the audience.
Some videos had such power within them, they managed to make me feel almost numb with pain such as this video called a moment of impact. by someone called xLiesforaLiar or something along that line.
Another thing that stuck out to me was a particular song that kept being used in the videos I watched. The name of the song was Uncover, and it seemed like the fans had given it the title of being one of the Larry Stylinson theme songs. It fits us though; the old us atleast.
After the whole storm where the shippers took things too far, we couldn't show our real selves- it had to be hidden. The closeness of our relationship had to remain a secret, away from the public eye.
When we had out moments alone, I always felt we could build our own universe, forget the world, just let it disappear. I thought it'd be possible, as long as i had you.
But I didn't have you.
I don't have you.
I don't think I ever will have you.
All that feeling will be is a thought that might be one day uncovered by you.
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This Little Book | larry s. ✅
RomanceSo I’ve got this book. You might be thinking why? What’s the reason behind this state I’m in right now? It’s you. It’s you who is driving me insane. It’s you who makes me feel so confused. It’s all completely and utterly you. Don’t feel guilty t...
