When I was a kid, I always promised myself that once I became a mom, I would never let my children feel alone in times when they needed me. I will always make myself available for them and let them feel the love that was taken away from me when my parents left me at a young age.
But that's not what happened because I was forced to live without my daughter by my side just to take care of his father, who didn't remember us. Naalala ko pa noong pinagbubuntis ko ang anak ko. Sullivan was comatose at the time. Iyon ang naging katumabas ng ginawa nilang proseso para maibalik ang ala-ala niya. Nagtagal 'yon hanggang sa makapanganak ako, and worst of all, of all people, I was the only person he couldn't remember.
He knows his parents and friends except for me. He remembers everything but me. Gusto kong magtanim ng sama ng loob. He was diagnosed with selective amnesia, in which the patient suffered from losing some parts of his memory, and unfortunately, it was me who had been forgotten.
The process in which he has undergone before falling into comatose is overview electroconvulsive therapy (OVT), in which the procedure was done to pass small electric currents through the brain that intentionally trigger something in his brain. This is usually used in psychiatric treatment, and I don't have any idea where Tita Kris got the choice to have his son undergo this kind of treatment.
I admit it was dangerous, but I felt relieved when somehow he was able to remember his family. Kahit naman ako lang ang hindi niya naalala ay masaya pa rin ako dahil nakaalala siya.
Ilang araw ang lumipas at nawala na naman si Sullivan. I know he's just dealing with something right now, but I couldn't help but overthink.
Pumunta kaya siya sa babae niya at doon nag-stay? Habang lumilipas ang araw ay hindi ko maiwasang mag-isip ng mas malala pa roon. Sullivan clearly wants me out of his life; that's why he would do everything to get rid of me.
Kaysa magmukmok ay nilibang ko ang sarili ko sa pagsusulat ng kanta. I don't know what I'm writing anymore, but I just jot down any ideas that occur in my mind. Halos hindi ko na namalayan ang oras dahil sa pagsusulat. Nang tignan ko ang orasan ay alas-dos na at hindi pa rin ako nakakapagtanghalian.
Simula nang maaksidente si Sullivan ay wala na akong naging maayos na habit sa pagkain, except when I was still pregnant. Minsan ay isang beses na lang ako kumakain sa isang araw, mayroon din namang time na hindi na talaga ako halos kumakain tulad noong pumunta kami ni Sullivan sa kanyang gig.
I sighed as I placed the homemade pizza inside the microwave. Ayon lang ang naisipan kong lutuin na madali at mabilis maubos. I glanced at the door, my mouth agape, when I saw Sullivan entering the kitchen. Halatang pagod siya at kulang sa tulog. Nakikita ko rin mula sa kinatatayuan ang malaking bilog na itim sa ilalim ng mata niya.
He looked at me and darted his eyes behind me. He sighed, placed his blazer on the chair, and went to the fridge to get his water. Pinagmasdan ko ang likod niya gumalaw habang naghihintay na matapos ang pizza ko. He looked at me when he noticed my stares. Tumaas ang kilay niya at pinukulan ako ng nagtatanong na tingin.
"What?" iritado niyang sabi. Umiling ako at pinagmasdan na lang ang pizza sa microwave. Bakit parang ang tagal?!
Naramdaman ko ang presensya ni Sullivan sa tabi ko. He cornered me by his arms and inched our gap. I looked at him and gulped. Nakakalunod ang mata niya at halos mahalina ako sa mabangong amoy niya.
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