At first I only heard one car, then next thing I know the whole damn force pulls up. They got out the car, and all had their guns pointed at me. I told Dev to go run around the bend and stay there. I was ready to go out.
When he ran back, I started thinking, about everything that's happened this summer. How it started so nice, up to now, such a terrible ending. This the kind of shit you see in movies, only Hollywood could think of something as golden as this. I turned to observe my surroundings, three dead niggas, me and some cops. At this point, the cops starting giving out orders.
"Come forward with your hands up! I repeat: with your hands UP!"
Then, the thought of my mom came into my head. That's when I lost it, imagine how it feels as a mother to see your son go from being an honor roll, straight A student, to a statistic; a product of my own environment. I hate that I did this to her, I just want to apologize to her one more time. I start to walk over to the cops, and at this point shit gets fuzzy.
As I walk over, I must have not really checked out to see if Reed was truly dead, because he wasn't. I heard him say something, and I turned around in shock, then I heard a shot. I looked down, my stomach was bleeding. I looked back up at him, and fell out.
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I don't know exactly what happened after that, my next memory is me waking up in the hospital, with my mom, Dev, and some police officers. They told me Reed eventually died from his wounds, and that I was the only living person from there, and they wanted to know the story. Either way they could arrest me, so I figured that if I told them my story, that they could see that I acted in self defense when I killed P, and it wouldn't be a first-degree murder charge. So I cooperated, to the best that I could, my chest was on fire, so I could barely move or speak.
After about an hour of me trying to talk, the police eventually saw I wasn't in the condition for it, and said they would come back later. They left, which gave me an opportunity to talk to my mom 1 on 1, something I haven't been able to do in a while. She looked at me and smiled, as a tear ran down her face. I tried my best to talk to her.
"You know I didn't mean for an- *coughs* of this to happen. This wasn't my plan."
"Oh I know, Kaide. Of course I'm mad at you, but I'm not mad at the way you handled yourself. You did it the best way you could, and I can respect that. Your father would be proud." At that moment, I remembered Snow was dead.
Damn man, in a matter of months, I found my real dad and lost him, this life is unforgiving yo. I know I said I wanted to get back on top after this, but once I pull through, I need to get my life together.
"I understand. I just want to sleep now."
"Alright, I'll take Dev home. Come on Dev."
Dev looked at me, and I looked back. I could tell he knew exactly what was going on...he wasn't dumb. I wanted to talk to him.
"You know what mom? Can I talk to my brother real fast?"
"Oh, of course. I'll just step outside."
She went out the door to my room, and I signaled Dev to come here.
"You know man, I just want to tell you...do not get into this. You see where it got me? This shit is not what they make it seem like, especially when you ass out. Just promise me you won't end up like me, find a better way."
He stared at me, and shook his head. After that he ran to my mom. I decided I would take that nap.
Days passed, and eventually the cops came back. I was in way better shape, so I could tell them my story, which I did. After about an hour of telling my story, they finally arrested me. I was okay with that, I felt confident I wasn't going to spend the rest of my life in prison.
