Matt Sturniolo one shots

The plug 3

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Matt hears quiet whispering stirring him out of his sleep. The first thing he sees is the sun peaking through his blinds making him squint his eyes. Letting out a groan he rolls over and as he does he hears the muttering stop. He looks around and there he sees both Nick and Chris standing at his door looking over at him. For a split second the regret and the embarrassment of the night before hasn't crossed his mind but within a moment he feels a weight creep in and sit at the pit of his stomach.

He looks over to the eldest and Nick looks rather calm so Matt is going to take a wild guess and assume Chris hasn't told him anything about the previous night and he isn't too sure if that's is a good or bad thing.

"Morning Matty." Chris greets taking a few steps forward sitting down on the bed at his feet. Nick follows behind rather quietly pulling up a chair next to the bed to sit down next to Chris. Something about the position makes him feel as though he is either about to be told off or regret everything that's ever led up to this particular moment in his life.

"Morning." He mumbles still half asleep. A brief moment of silence follows leaving all three of them to wonder who is going to bring up the conversation.

"I mentioned to Nick that you haven't been doing too well and that we need to change some things around here to help you." Chris eases into the conversation but no matter how much he eases into it Matt can't help but curl in on himself feeling anxiety starting to take over his chest. Last night he was high and there was one brother; the younger, more calm brother. Now he's sober with the aching on his thigh reminding him of the regrettable decision of last night.

"What's this all about, hey?" Nick smiles at him trying to settle the vibe of the room. Matt finds himself shrugging his shoulders and closing his eyes trying to avoid or deflect the conversation, he isn't too sure what one. A minute passes before he feels a hand on his leg.

"It's okay Matt no one's mad at all." Chris says, somehow this lights something inside of Matt and makes him want to try and reason with his brothers, take everything back. Tell Chris that it was all a mistake, he doesn't feel that way and that he will never hurt himself again, but that's not going to happen and he knows that.

"I have been struggling with my anxiety, it started from hate comments on one of our videos a few months back." Matt says slowly pulling himself up to lean against his headboard. He watches as Nicks eyebrows furrow together and a frown set on his face.

"I can't turn it off. I've been really struggling." Matt continues and as he keeps talking a weight feels as though it's slowly lifting off his chest. He knows what he's about to say next is going to effect the eldest just like it did the youngest but he's not high this time and he can't hide behind the darkness of the room or the effects of a joint.

"I've been smoking weed and then burning myself with the joint to stop my anxiety." Matt says, voice quivering and even he is surprised at the bluntness of the complicated situation. Nicks face morphs into somthing that makes Matt's heart break. Within seconds Nick is forward at his side holding on his arm looking into his eyes.

"Are you being serious Matt? Please don't tell me." Nick says, eyes wide and a frown on his face. Matt just nods his head eyes glancing over at Chris who is sitting head in his hands looking at the floor.

"I'm sorry." He almost cries out trying to calm the situation but somehow managing to make it worse when he sees Chris's head shoot up to look at him.

"Don't apologise Matt, you are hurting. We aren't ever mad at you." Chris says trying to soothe over his brothers nerves. It slightly helps when he takes in a deep breath looking back at Nick just as a tear falls down his cheek.

"I needed an out guys, you had to understand I couldn't- I can't do the fame." He feels his heart beating as his brothers watch him figure out the words he is going to say. A moment passes but the underlying meaning to Matt's words hang heavy in the air.

"We understand, whatever you need to do to get better we have your back." Nick says reaching forward to wipe a tear away from under Matt's eye.

"We need to do something that pushes you in the right direction, I can't sleep in the room beside you with the thought that you are hurting yourself, that will kill me Matt." Chris says. He nods his head wanting to help himself so his brothers don't feel this way anymore.

"I'll stop, I'll talk to someone, I just need a break from the fame." Matt try's to bargain with his brothers but not knowing a bargain isn't even needed they would both drop anything and everything to help him.

"Of course, it's already done." Nick says still intensely looking at Matt holding onto him. He nods his head looking down at his hands for the first time this morning a calm silence wash over the room.

"How about you get changed and we can have some breakfast and talk more about it later, it's been a lot for you Matty." Chris says standing up from his chair smiling at him. He nods his head when Nick pulls in for a hug rubbing his brothers back before standing up.

"Okay, I love you." Matt says as a weight slowly lift off his shoulders when he sees them both smile at him.

"We love you, just call out if you need up. We will be there this time I promise."

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