Romeo and Julio

Chapter 7 Denials

We both Sat exactly where we were staring at eachother in disbelief. "No please not Romeo Please." He finally said the bell rang for us to wake up we began to get changed there was an awkward atmosphere in the room only the clothes being folded can be heard I couldn't even hear myself breathe. I left the room first to go to breakfast. I shouldn't have told him I shouldn't have. Now I doubt our friendship will remain. Julio entered the room and sat the other table. I felt a hand on my back. I turned to see Marco " Hey Rom how you feeling." He comforted. I struggled to hold back the tears "I'm fine Marco." I noticed it came out harsher then intended. "Look Romeo you know I'm your friend and to always come and talk to me."He was sitting beside me with his hand still on my back."Sure." I replied.

Beacause Julio was not talking to me I spent most of my time with Marco until sister Gabriellas class. This time I decided to sit in my usual seat beside Julio. He looked at me grossly then turned himself to me and whispered " I don't want w hurt you Romeo you have to stay away from me." Tears were gathering in his eyes. "What on ea-" suddenly we all had to rise as sister came in the room. We said our morning prayer and class begun.

after class I made sure I went the same time as Julio. I was going to sort this out. Julio was going outside to the back of the school where nobody really goes. I followed him there when we got outside. He suddenly snapped around and pushed me up against the wall. "Romeo what did I say! You have to stop this I'm trying to protect you." He whisper screamed. "You're doing no such thing Julio all you're doing is hurting me." I replied."Well you know what it's better I do then them okay."He swallowed. "What, them? what are you talking about?"

I felt his whole body grow weak as his grip loosened. His head dropped as if he was a puppet on a string. "My back." He mumbled softly."wha-.""They will hurt you and when you get out of here they will kill you if they knew. I should've never talked to you I've done this all."He began shouting."Julio, I don't quite understand." I whispered back " I'm gay Romeo just like you but according to the God damned church,civilization,orphanage and all of Italy that's wrong. We are wrong. Don't you see we can't be Romeo you never decided to love me just like I never decided to love a female. I thought I loved someone once before. In the end it turns out he only did the things we did to catch me out and have me beaten and shunned and blanked by my friends and even my family. I never thought i'd never love again and when I met you I realized I can. If God didnt want one man to love another he would have made it impossible to fall in love with a human of the same sex. He would of made it that there would be no feeling if I did this."

He placed his hands firmly on both sides of my face and pulled my head towards his. He passionately kissed me. I remained completely still. My stomach was filled with butterflies. I felt as if I could do a back flip. I felt sparks as my arms automatically made my way to his waist and pulled him closer. the kiss lasted for what seemed to be forever when we heard the bell ringing to go to mass. He pulled away his hands resting on my shoulders and my arms still tightly around his waist. "I can't love you Romeo and you can't love me." He immediately pulled away from me and hurried off the the direction of the church for mass. I was frozen on the spot. Julio is gay as am I. What in the world was going on . I shuffled to the chapel to sit in the back row. Mass is usually long but today it felt a lot longer. Suddenly I caught a glimpse of Julio and the room started spinning. It was time to go up to receive the holy communion. I got out of my seat only to fall back down again. " Move along boy there's no time for this." A figure said beside me. I tried to put my foot in front of me when suddenly my whole body collapsed and then everything went black.