Meetup // DNF

17 - Absolutely Nothing Could Be Better Than This ⚠️

⚠️ - eating disorder + a depressive episode
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(Dream's pov)

I lay in my bed, exhausted.

I've been just lying down and staring at the ceiling for the past 3 hours.

I haven't had the energy to get up at all, and I feel sad, but for no reason.

So it's one of those days...

When I was a teenager, I'd get these a lot. When I was 13, I was depressed for about 6 months before feeling better again. When I turned 15, it happened again, but for only 3 months. When I turned 16, it happened on and off. I guess this time it's going on and off again. Or, maybe it's here to stay for a while.

I put my head under my pillow, trying to go back to sleep. Unfortunately, I can't sleep when I'm exhausted.

I groan out of annoyance before checking my phone.

3:25pm

Already!? Well, at least the time is moving fast when I'm at my lowest.

I take a few minutes before getting up, not bothering to get ready for the day.

I go in the kitchen and search in it for a bit before settling on binge eating chips.

I walk to the couch and lay on it, facing the TV. I grab the remote and turn on the TV, putting on the show, 'Bojack Horseman.' It's my comfort show for whenever I feel bad.

Though, the show only makes me feel worse. Why do I feel so bad if nothing bad or sad happened to me? Why do I have these episodes? (Genuinely asking y'all Why do I get these?)

I look down and see 5 chip bags eaten. I've ate that much already? I need to stop.

I pick up the chip bags and throw them across the room to the trash can, but it misses. I am not getting up from this couch, though.

I stay where I am, continuing to watch the show I put on.

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(George's pov)

I put all my chocolate in the trash bin so I'd lose some weight. I stopped eating high in fat foods, and limited myself to 1 meal a day. In that 1 meal, I'll have a lot of non-fat foods. The meal mainly consists of salad, broccoli, eggs, yogurt, and green tea.

If my diet doesn't work, I'll have to resort to other things..

But for now, I'm going to stick with the diet.

Right now I feel so hungry, but it's only 3:37pm. I plan on only having my meals at 4pm.

I'll just have to find something to do in the meantime.

I figured I'd do some chores around the house. Maybe some of the physical activity would make me loose at least a bit of calories.

I grab a broom and put on the song 'Heatwaves' as I sweep up some of the messes and dust off of the ground.

There ended up being a lot of dust and crumbs on the ground that was scattered around the house so it didn't look like there was much of a mess.