In circles

Drama, Drama, Drama

Aaliyah;
It's been about 2 weeks since I last spoke to Camille. I would be lying if I said I didn't miss my sister but, I can't get around to forgiving her just yet. I do hope she's okay and maybe one day I'll understand why she chose to do something as crazy as faking a pregnancy. On the flip side I've been spending a lot of time with Josh lately. Some days he's super busy being a badass lawyer and all but he makes time for me and I really appreciate that. I know once I go back to work next week our schedules will probably be a lot less flexible, may even have to start penciling each other in. I don't plan on going back to work full time just yet since I am still recovering a bit. Josh said that he would help me out in any way that he could but, I've been hesitant on letting him help mostly because he's done so much already. I've always been a do it myself type of woman and I don't see that changing just yet. I'm appreciative that he extended the offer, he cares about me and I care about him too. I get a text and of course it's from my favorite guy. I smiled at my phone as I read the message displayed across my screen.

"You busy tonight lady? "
Why he calls me lady, I have no idea but I happen to like it. I wanted a few minutes just not to seem too eager.
"Hey handsome. I'm not busy. You have something in mind?"
"Yes actually. I was wondering if you wanted to go catch a movie?"
"If it's anything scary then I'm in lol!"
"You and these horror movies. Whatever you want to see then that's fine with me. I'll pick you up at 7:00. Is that good?"
"7 is fine. I'll be ready. Can't wait to see you 😘"
"😘"

Josh ended our conversation with a kissy face. Tonight I hope to get an actual kiss from him. It's been a few months now but we have yet to kiss. I mean unless you count a peck here and there and they are mostly on the cheek or forehead. I have to admit he has been very respectful and I like that. It's just been a long time since I've had sex and this man makes me want to jump his bones every time I see him. Since our date wasn't until later and it was currently only 12:00 I decided to make me a small bite to eat and then do some chores. I took out my pan to start cooking and I heard a knock at the door. I walked over and glanced out the peek hole to see Camille standing on the other side of the door. "What the hell does she want?" I thought to myself before I cracked the door open.

"Yeah? What you want?" I asked Camille with an attitude.
"I just wanted to come by and talk to you. I know I have some explaining to do and I'm hoping that you will hear me out. I'm sorry Li."
I rolled my eyes and opened the door wider so she could come in. "Come on" I said.
"Look Li I know this shit is messed up. Trust me I do understand how crazy I look doing some shit like this. I don't know if I'm stupid over Quincy or what but, I just wanted him to love me. To be in love with me. I love him and I have always. I chose him over and over again even when it was other dudes trying to holler. I stuck stupid on him. I thought it was loyalty but now I'm not so sure. Please forgive me. You're my sister and you've been my back bone from day one. I don't want to lose you."
I looked at my sister. I loved my sister; I just still didn't understand. "All of this for a nigga to love you Mil?"
"I know how stupid It sound but I mean at the end of the day that's why I did it. I wanted him to love me."
"Camille if he couldn't see the person you were before a supposed baby was in the picture then he won't ever see you for the person you are. He won't ever love you the way you want him to. With this baby he's infatuated with the idea of being a father. Who's to say the baby gets here and he still ends up cheating and doing all those other things again. It's obligation little sister. That's not love."
Camille didn't say anything. She sat there looking at the wall.
Finally after a long pause she looked at me and said "I know it's not right but for some reason I can't seem to stop. I can't seem to tell him the truth. It would be the end of us. To me this is the perfect solution and I have to see it through to the end." I stood in awe as I heard those words fall from my sisters mouth. Was she crazy? Did she get dropped on her head as a child? This was beyond crazy. "Camille you do you but, this is not right. Not by a long shot. Your ass need some serious help and quick. Get out Camille. Don't come back until you have cleared this shit up. I don't want any parts in this craziness."
I pointed to the door. It was time for her to leave. I was tired of hearing her bullshit.