Two Demons (Book 2)

Heaven

Alastor POV

"What do you mean he wants you back in heaven..!?" I started having a hard time breathing. "My dad said since Charlie has taken over and has done such a great job.. I should as he put it 'come home' and he's.. not.. not giving me an option to say no..""you can't just leave..! What about our home what about... about Zere" my breathing got faster I started hyperventilating "what about me..! I can't go to heaven, Sere can't go to heaven..!" I gripped my hair tightly and the panic attack was full on. I could tell he was trying to say something trying to talk to me but everything was blurry my vision the sounds around me his voice the sounds of hell was all muffled.

I felt something warm touch the middle of my back, next thing I know I'm running, I don't know where I didn't want anyone seeing me like this I couldn't have anyone see me like this. I still couldn't see but I could tell I was bumping into people shoving them out of my way. I take a sharp turn and lean against a bricked wall. I knew it was an alley. I try to take a deep breath but I can't take in much air. I feel light headed. I shut my eyes tight, gripping my hair again tightly. I feel the pain as the strands of hair start to rip off of my scalp but I didn't care.

I once again felt the earth of something but this time on my cheeks. I get a quick smell of Lucifer scent which starts calming me down. My vision starts to focus. When I can finally the first thing I see is his face. His eyes are soft and full of worry. He's not upset with me for freaking out, he's not mad at me for overreacting all I can see is worry. He slowly places his hands on mine. I feel him slowly loosen my grip from my hair. I watch him silent. He removed the hair I pulled out from my hands, he then placed them on his chest. I feel his heartbeat. It's calm and steady. I focus on the feeling of it beating, I count the beats. He starts counting as well "1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10" he pauses looking at me "o-one, t-two 3 4 5 6 7" he starts counting with me "8 9 10" I take a long deep breath and slowly let it go he does the same with me. I look up at him tears in my eyes.''

Lucifer is slow with his movement, he slowly lays me down on my back and lays on me putting pressure on my chest which calms me down the rest of the way. I slowly hug him staring up at the sky "hello my sweet deer" I grip him "hello my love" he slowly kisses my cheeks. "I'm so sorry.. I should have done that more privately, I won't do that again" I nod "I might have overreacted.." "no no no you can not control how you react to something like that. Never blame yourself" I nod "thank you for not getting upset with me ""I will never get upset for something like that" I slowly sit up hugging him "I..I can't.." "I'm trying to talk to my dad.. I don't want to leave you, I promise I don't want to leave you, I hate this so much.. I'm trying to promise I am.." I look at him "what if you can't figure something out..?" "Then I guess I'll go your moms way" I get confused. He wiggles his fingers "Oooooooooooooo" I can't help but laugh "oh yeah?" "Teach me a spell! If he doesn't listen I'll turn someone into a frog and BOOM sent back" I nuzzle into his neck laughing "can't you do that already?" "Yesssss but it's gotta be voooodooooo" "okay okay, I'll teach you how to do something" I kiss his neck

"Alright! Let's go home, I'm sure you could use some quiet time" I nod and stand up with him and we walk home. We walked in silence not knowing what to say but the silence was nice. It was true I really did need the silence but holding his hand knowing that he's here with me right now is what made the silence perfect. So many thoughts run through my head. I'm sad, scared, Anxious I don't know what's going to happen, I have no clue, is he going to figure it out, figure out how to stay or.. is he going to leave.. leave Zere, leave.. me... I've been so happy this life I have gotten so used to might end soon.. I'll be.. alone.. alone again.. I have never prayed before but for the first time ever.. I prayed that if he had to go.. he could at least time Zere.. Zere needed him.. heaven is a good place.. Sere deserved to see it.. to get away from this.. away from hell.." 'please... at least let Zere go.. let Zere see heaven.. if I can't go.. at least let There be happiness... I would rather be completely alone than to see my son.. My sweet baby is so upset over not being able to see his father.. they could visit at least... I can't visit heaven but god can come down here.. they should be able too as well.. Right..?' I walk into the house still lost in thought, I sit on the couch and immediately shove my nose into a book.