Letters I'll Never Send

Dear Best Friend (To Be Me)

To be me is to listen intently with a busted eardrum.

To be me is to pave the way for you even when I myself am lost.

To be me is to lend a helping hand with two broken arms.

To be me is giving you a life vest even though I can't swim.

To be me is wiping my tears so I can hold you while you cry.

To be me is playing dumb so you can be the smartest person in the room.

To be me means not being allowed to be angry while you yell at me.

To be me means being told to do my best but be criticized for working too much.

To be me is apologizing for things I never did.

To be me is to be outgoing but never outshine you.

To be me is to be a pacifist when I'd rather make all the decisions.

To be me is to never speak unless spoken to.

To be me is to never stop smiling.

To be me is to be pretty, but never prettier than you.

To be me is to downplay my accomplishments so you don't feel left out.

To be me is being told not to worry while I'm being crushed under anxiety.

To be me is to handle your emotions with grace while you ignore mine.

To be me means to be funny so you can laugh at my expense but never funny enough that people like me more.

To be me is to be the middle man while also your punching bag.

To be me is to buy you a coffee when you're sad, but never be sad enough where you feel obligated to do the same.

To be me is to pay for dinner and not expect anything in return.

To be me is to read the list of all the money I owe you, when you did the same.

To be me is to never have a bad day.

To be me is to be perfect but not so perfect that I make you look bad.

To be me is to make all of the plans so you never have to feel lonely.

To be me is to love the people you love despite how they treat me.

To be me is to fight for you while you would never show up for me.

To be me is to love you when you stab me in the back.

To be me is to climb the mountain and carry you to the top.

To be me means to fight demons that were never mine.

To be me means to have fun but never without you.

To be me is to be the villain in your story.

To be me is to be your best friend.