Letters I'll Never Send

Dear You

If loving me is hard and draining,

I'm truly sorry for the weight I add.

I know I'm not always easy to hold,

not always simple to understand.

and I regret the moments I've made it more difficult.

I wish I could be softer,

less of a challenge to your heart.

I'm flawed and full of contradictions.

I'm sorry for the times I've tested you, 

for the hurt I've caused, 

and the exhaustion I've brought. 

Please know I never meant to cause you

pain. 

Yet, I hope you see the love I try to give,

I'm sorry if loving me feels heavy.

Please know even if it's hard,

I cherish every bit of love you've given,

and I'm endlessly grateful for you.