𝙡𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙤𝙛 𝙖 𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙨𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙡𝙖𝙠𝙚𝙨 / 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘮𝘶𝘭𝘢 𝘰𝘯𝘦

10..

May 22nd 2019

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We walked back to our hotel as soon as we finished our coffees, me and Mick. We've managed to catch up during our time together, which I enjoyed, we even finally exchanged numbers.

I had dropped off Mick at his hotel room before making my way down to mine.

I was waiting for the elevator doors to open with my laptop bag slung over my shoulder. When they had finally opened, it wasn't empty. He looked up from his phone and gave me a smile. "Hey." I gave him a smile back before walking in, pressing my floors button, then walked over towards the other side of Lando.

"Hey Suv." He tucked his phone away in his back pocket of his jeans. "Long time no see."

"I've tried messaging you, but you've never replied.." he then adds, putting all his attention on me. "Sorry, I haven't been on my phone recently." He nods, and there was silence between us. I looked down at my feet as I could still feel him staring at me. But thankfully the doors opened to my floor. "See you around, yeah?" I ask and began making my way out of the elevator, but I was stopped by a hand grabbing my arm.

"Wait."

I stood there looking at him, waiting for him to speak up. But as a couple of seconds went by of him not saying anything, I grabbed his wrist and gently pulled it away from my arm while giving him a friendly smile. "I'll see you around Lan." I say, wanting to turn my body around I was stopped yet again by the brit, although this time he placed both his hands on my waist and pulled me in closer to him.

Before I could speak up, and ask him what his problem was -- he had softly placed his lips on mine. The elevator doors closing on us.
I felt my entire body froze as I didn't know what to do. Did I want to kiss him back? What would happen in the end if I do? What will happen to our friendship?
I kept questioning myself, standing there still in his grasp.

"Excuse me." We both broke away from eachother, as we just realized the elevator door had opened again as we reached the lobby floor. Thankfully it wasn't anyone we knew as it was just a lady waiting with who seemed to be her children. "I'll- uh.. see you later." Was all that Lando had said before he walked away.

I stood there in the shaft, speechless and overall astound. "4th floor please." The same lady spoke again, breaking me out of whatever state I was in. "Sorry." I mutter, pressing the button to the Ladys request before pressing my own.

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"Mikä sinulla kesti niin kauan?" I was met with my brother, closing the door softly and locking it. "Mick halusi apua johonkin." I shrugged my shoulders, lying straight to his face.

I walked over to the kitchen only to find that Sebastian was also in our hotel room. "Hey Seb." I acknowledge him, giving him a tight hug before going over to the fridge in hopes of finding something to snack on.

"Whats the plan for this evening?" I ask. I grabbed the bag of grapes before closing the fridge. I turned around and went over to the sink.

"We both have to head out for some media thing." Kimi mumbles, he's never been a fan of being infront of a camera, being asked questions. Which I get. I've heard some of the dumb questions previous interviewers have asked my brother.

"That sounds wonderful." I began washing the grapes, both Kimi and Sebastian began making their way over to the door.

Sebastian chuckles and began putting on his sneakers, Kimi following his pursuit but not having the slightest reaction to my comment.
Both walk over to me and gave me a peck on the side of my forehead before departing. "Bye Suv!"

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Over the past couple of hours, being alone in the hotel room, I had managed to send a couple of applications to University's back in Finland. Feeling accomplished, I had decided to head out and walk around Monaco -- maybe stop and get a snack or early dinner.

Maybe I could try and find my way to the track? Surely they should still be there right? I could definitely stop by and say hello.

I went to reach in my back pocket but felt no phone. Great. No phone, no map.
I

looked around as I continued walking. Maybe I need this time to myself.

I continued to walk along the streets but later stopped by the same ice cream shop I had visited with George, Alex and Mick. I got the same flavor as last time, as all the other flavors either looked and sounded boring, or for elderly people. If you know what I mean.

Plus I much rather enjoyed my cookie dough, it had always been a favorite of mine.

I walked down to the harbor and walked along the outskirts of it, it became quit chilly as it was later in the day and a breeze was coming in just off the shores. My ice cream didn't help much either.

I stopped by a bench just nearby, to just enjoy the scenery. Too bad I didn't have my phone or camera with me.
I finished off the last bit of my cookie dough, but still stayed put to watch the various of boats float by.

Did I want to kiss him back? I began to wonder. I haven't even known him that long, and right then and there he had connected our lips?

What will happen to our friendship? If that is what we are.

Although it was something as simple as a kiss, an action of which couples do, what two people who take a liking in one another do, or something much more, in love. It was much more complicated; more complex. That proved to me what Lando thinks and holds, but what about me?

Do I like him back? Yes, no? I didn't kiss him back so surely I don't like him like how he likes me. But I had thought about it, what does that mean?

I shook my head to get myself out of those thoughts, I didn't want that to waste anymore time that I have to myself. I didn't want to dwell on it.
If Lando wants to talk about us, then I'll let him come to me.

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IM SHITTING BRICKS RIGHT NOW. MY SOCCER AND RUGBY SEASON JUST MIGHT BE OVER FOR ME 😭
I FUCKED MY ANKLE FROM SIMPLY BLOCKING A SHOT IN PRACTICE TODAY

I EVEN HEARD A CRACK 💀💀

THANFULLY IM GOING TO THE DOC'S (no, not THE vale rossi, i wish) SOMETIME THIS WEEK TO DETERMINE IT BEING EITHER SEVERE OR MINOR 🤞

*BUT GOOD NEWS IS THAT I'LL PROBABLY PUBLISH MORE THIS WEEK AS I ALSO DONT HAVE SCHOOL 🥳🙌