28/3/2024
Focus on yourself, I should right. Do things for yourself, make yourself happy, loose yourself in work. I know it all but how to do it. Head spaces out the things, I open the book, just seems like I am flipping through the pages. I play and it goes on, some scenes catch my attention, some doesn't.
It's okay I guess, I hope I understand this right.
So let's start my picking myself up first, drink some water, breath. It's the day of hope right. I should do something well.
I wait, and I wait and hope arrives, I should not read too much into it right ?
But then there are the little things, it seems you are confused, you need me right? I hope it's not all in my mind.
A wise man once said nothing, you don't have to apply it literally, at least I want to listen to everything once before you keep your quite. I deserved that right?
I see the hope, I meet the hope, she's a sweetheart, but I have no rights, she's also hurting but I can't do anything right, it's not all up to me to decide. I look at you, maybe hoping you need me as well as I do, but you decide to be quite.
And you leave with the sweetness, I don't know if it's the last time I get to hold her, she is love, she is care, I hope no one is hurt. At least I hope I haven't hurt anyone from my side.
But then I want you, I hope and call you back, and you come and give me words of soon, but please don't leave me something so vague, give me a definite day, a date.
It's scary but I shall be strong.
Don't worry I can't hate you, I will love us and respect whatever you decide.
It does take two to start something and one to end it, I told this to you in beginning, remember. See so true.
Will not hold you unless you want to be held. Will not, I hope or I hope not.
