31/3/2024
D-20
Yes I am counting down the days, that hope of 1% of US, it's getting me through. I will do some work today, April is busy for me.
I don't want to think about the 99% but I should. I will work on myself now.
I don't know when I slept, when did the noise in my head died down
And the dreams started. There doesn't seem to be a fixed time for me now. I should go and work right.
I miss you, us your arms, the comfort, the understanding.
I should not right, I think I will make stars now, whenever I will miss you, I miss that diary, I want to draw us , I want to write in it. I regret making you take it. Give it to me back, please make me believe it was not just me who was truly into us.
Come around for us, don't make my feelings so short lived.
I.......... , I don't know what I was going to say. Yes I am sorry for yesterday. I made things more hard for you didn't I, I swear I won't break again till 20th, I swear, please forgive me.
I will be strong, I guess I have no other choice in this regard.
I hope you are being okay as well, I hope you are eating on time as well , I hope.
I am tired of these hopes.
It will end later I guess.
I broke again.
This is the last time
I swear I won't again.
I just want to hold you once, is it too much to ask ?
Please, I don't want to feel like this.
How can I make it stop
I don't like the hope.
Are you confused about us? Me? What will change ? You want some time to think right. I guess I will accept it and give you space .
I am sorry for breaking two times, won't happen again.
I shall hope, against all possibilities, against all the negatives till you will break it.
