29/3/2024
D-22
20th April is it I guess.
I should not have hope, there is work but I don't know what to start and what to finish, time is not stopping for me, I guess I have to buckle up and just do things.
No contact you said right. It's hard. I don't want to be left alone with my mind. It makes me low, I want to forgive myself for this, how to not be a prisoner of our own mind.
I should respect it right, I don't want to know what you are doing but I am worried. I start to watch but then I space out. I don't want to be alone.
I don't want to lose what I have found.
I want my first to be my last.
I know it's a lot to ask but I don't want to ask anymore.
I want to be chosen, not be a convenience. We will see later I guess right.
It is hard.
