Pain of Discovery (BoyxBoy) [The Pain series Book 1]

Turnaround

[A/N - this is a BIIIIIIIIGG chapter. Don't think I need to say much more than that really. Please leave your comments and feedback if you like it and follow me too :) - Shanelle, this one is all for you hunny!! :D x]

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The rush of lukewarm water cascading over my aching head acted as a welcome distraction as I stood slumped in the corner of the shower cubicle. The events of last night were still raw, both in my fractured mind and on the purple bruises on my wrists. The pain and confusion were ever present, but they were now joined by a carnal desire to be completely at the mercy of another man - unable and even unwilling to fight off his power and lust.

I still felt guilty though that I'd taken the cowardly option of leaving before Aki had awakened. He would probably have been worried about where I'd gone, but I'm sure he would check his phone and find the home screen photo of me lying on his muscular chest as the first glints of sunlight pierced through the black muslin curtains. I sent the same photo to my own mobile so that I could forever remember just how free, fulfilled and contented I had felt at that moment.

But now, being back in the hotel room that was once my haven with Zak and which still bore the scars of my violent breakdown only two nights ago, I suddenly felt trapped and breathless once again. No place where I had enjoyed any sort of mundane event with Zak - bitching about Dario, giggling over ridiculous game-shows on TV that neither of us could even begin to understand - felt like a refuge anymore. Instead, the callous words, the screams, the tears and the back-stabbing all flooded my conscience like a tsunami and flipped my heart upside down.

And yet, despite all of this incessant turmoil, I still felt the instinctive need to return. There was just something that only Zak could provide, and lying awake next to Aki as he slept off our physical exertions, I could only think of being in Zak's arms.

You're so deluded Jason. He'll never want to take you to the heights that Aki took you to last night. And ultimately, you know he'll never love you.

Those last few words echoed around my head with a sharp stab, like switch-blades trying to force their way through my skull. The water was turning cold now, and the goosebumps were prickling down my shivering arms as I grabbed my wrist and twisted. The sizzling heat that shot to my shoulder from the pressure on my bruised skin made me wince, but I enjoyed the feeling of being able to fool my mind into focusing on something else, even if it was only for a few seconds.

I hadn't intended on inflicting such pain on my own body last night, but it was hard to avoid when your master for the night had bound your wrists to the metal bed frame with leather belts. Aki was quite a force to be reckoned with when he had a little bit of power!

After I had rejected Zak's call and shut down my phone, he was instantly back into the dominant role and he took great pleasure in throwing me on the bed and undoing the belts from both of our jeans so that he could shackle me helplessly to the bed. The dark, carvernous pupils of his normally jovial eyes were burning with a raging heat, and as I stared at him - heart pounding and chest gasping at the anticipation of what might lie ahead - I knew that I was going to enjoy being Aki's slave for the night.

He slowly stripped me naked, removing each garment and planting soft, inquisitive kisses on each part of my trembling body. With each involuntary moan that escaped from my lips, he would pull away from me and stand upright at the foot of the bed, sternly narrowing his eyes and bringing his finger to his lips as if to silence a noisy child. The inability to close the distance between us heightened my senses to the point where I thought I may scream from the passion that he was expertly raising inside of me.

I have no idea how he knew just what buttons to push to drive me wild, but as he removed my shoes and socks, he brought my foot to his warm moist lips and began to gently suck on my big toe. I instantly arched my back at the feeling that flooded around my entire body - never before had I felt so aroused by just a simple touch, but his expert work was getting me harder than I'd ever been before.