The things I can't have - Taylor and Travis (AU)

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Taylor
I look everywhere for my laptop charger, it's the last thing I need to pack. Today is collage move in day and since I'm actually going to the same college as my brother our parents will drive us there to help. Travis also goes to that collage, it's actually kinda weird we all got accepted to the same college but I'm not mad about it. I love my brother and I've had the biggest crush on Travis since I was a kid and now I'll get to see him a lot. Him and Travis are second year so they rant an apartment together just outside the campus but I'm a freshman so I have to stay in the dorms for my first year. I'll probably visit them a lot tho. "Found it!" I announce when I see my charger in the office room. I take it and go to the living room to put it in the laptop case.

"Are you sure you're all packed and ready?״ my mom asks and I nod "I've been packing for a week I'm pretty sure I got everything". My dad comes and start taking one of my boxes to the car outside. I take another box and my guitar and go after him. Austin and Travis are leaning on the car "jeez Taylor did you pack your whole room?" Austin says and I roll my eyes, he's so annoying sometimes. Travis laughs "Need a hand with that?" He asks as he takes the box out of my hands, his fingers brush lightly against mine and I can feel my cheeks heating up from the blush. "Thanks".

"Are you coming with us?" I look up at him "yeah my parents left for Hawaii yesterday so Andrea told me I could ride with you guys" I realize since I'm the smallest one they're gonna make me sit in the middle, and it means sitting so close to Travis for three and a half hours. How will I survive?
"Are you excited to go to collage?" He asks and really seems interested, not like he's just being polite and I nod "yeah I'm finally going to really study about music and poetry!" I try to not sound to excited so he won't think I'm weird "but it sucks Abigail goes to another school, she left yesterday actually and I don't know how I'll manage to not talk to her every day" I look down, for the last four years Abigail and I were inseparable, we did almost everything together. It's been less than 24 hours since I last saw her and I already miss her, I hope we'll survive until we'll meet again on thanksgiving break. "Yeah me and Austin got really lucky to be able to stay together" I give him a small smile, knowing how good it was for my brother to have him. While Travis's been 'the cool guy' everywhere he went, Austin is a little more quiet and Travis never cared he wasn't as popular. They always stuck together which is adorable.

We talk for another moment until my dad finishes bringing my suitcase to the car. And Austin interrupts us "Teffy you're in the middle" I scrunch my nose knowing it's not gonna be that comfortable.
Travis open the door for me and when I settle in my sit he gets in as well, he's a huge guy, also muscular from the football and takes a lot of room in the car, his right thigh touching my left one. I try to ignore it. It's been so many years and I still haven't gotten used to the little occasional touches, like his hand around by back when taking group photos or him taping my shoulder when trying to get my attention for something.

In my head I know I don't stand a chance, he's Travis Kelce, the football player, the cool guy. Girls throw themselves at him all the time since he was in high school. And I'm the weird kid, I have only one friend and most of my free time I spend reading or making music to myself, not at parties. The only reason he's ever spoken to me is just because I'm his best friend's sister. I'm always around. Oh yeah that's another reason I can't be with him. Austin will murder him.

But in my heart there's never been anyone else. I remember even at 10 years old, I imagined us getting married. And to this day he's the one I fantasize about before falling asleep. Gosh why am I so complicated? It probably would've been better to just start fresh at another collage and I would've probably met another guy I liked. But it's too late for this now.

We started the drive and as always soon enough I got tired.

Travis
I look outside the window as the car drives, we just got out of the city as I feel some weight on my right arm, I look in the direction and see Taylor's blonde curls, she fell asleep on me. I immediately look over to Austin and he's also passed out, leaning against the window. Should I move her? I don't want to wake her up, she'll need the rest since the first days in collage are intense.

But I'm also scared that Austin will wake up and find her sleeping against me, he'll think it's weird. I'm not worried about her parents, them and my parents have been friends for years and always made jokes about how Taylor has to marry either me or my brother Jason. To be honest the thought of her with Jason grosses me out, also the thought of her with any guy other than me for that matter. I know I can't tho, Austin will definitely kill me.

I decide to just leave her there, can't help but be a little selfish since I'm enjoying the feeling of her against me so much. Warmth spread around my chest, it happens every time I hear her laugh or see her smile, every time I get a chance to touch her with the smallest touches. I think I've been in love with her for a year and a half now, it doesn't seem like it's gonna go anywhere, even when I almost didn't see her last year when I was away in collage she was the last thing on my mind every night before o fell asleep.

After a while she moves a little and cuddles closer to me, letting out a cute whimper in the process. Is she having a bed dream?

"You could move her to lean on Austin if you're not comfortable" Scott says and pulls me out of my thoughts. I look at him through the rare view mirror and then down to her sleeping form.
I don't want to move her. "No it's okay she doesn't bother be. She looks comfortable and I done want to accidentally wake her up" he nods once and turn back to focus on the road.

"You know? I always thought she'll end up confessing her crush to you and something will happen. You two could've been so cute together"

My eyes shot up to Andrea as she says the word crush. Did Taylor have a crush on me? Does she still have it now? God I really hope she does. I laugh a little at what her mother said, trying not to move too much so I won't bother Taylor.

If she wants me back that changes everything.

She probably doesn't. She's too good for me anyways, much smarter, so talented and so beautiful. I just know how to play football, my dyslexia making it hard to be a good student, I'm good at math stuff but that's it. I don't stand a chance with her. But oh I wish I did.