Where are you? [REVAMP] - HAECHAN

Chapter 12

At the far end of the building where the emergency stairs are located, he hides away from the world.

"I messed up"

He slides down the wall, having a meltdown.

"Donghyuck, what have you gone through"

"How painful it was, how lonely it was" he wails.

After all this time, he really did leave Donghyuck behind and that truth shook him to the core. He was not saving him, instead he left him drowning on his own.

It's been hours and Mark still couldn't get himself together, the confrontation leaves him scars. He didn't think he deserved to face Donghyuck after this. He cost him a great deal of pain.

But he is still in there, fighting alone.

And he couldn't leave him. Never again.

The doctor's words come back to him.

"Go back to your memories, before Haechan even existed"

Haechan didn't exist when they were in high school but then when did he become alive?

And Mark recalls the confrontation he had with Haechan earlier.

"YOU LEFT REMEMBER? YOU FUCKING LEFT"

It hurts him to remember the scenes but he needs to swallow through.

"And I was the one that saved him, I was there during his breaking point! That's why he needs me more than ever, he needs me as a whole can't you see?"

Fuck.

That was it.

Haechan existed when he left when Donghyuck didn't have anyone to lean on so he created ...

Him.

Mark straightens himself up, he knows what he needs to do now. He needs to convince Donghyuck that after all this time, he never left. He always sees him past this Haechan persona and Donghyuck was the one he leaned onto all this time. He needs him to believe.

Running out from the emergency staircase, it was already dark outside. Donghyuck should be asleep by now, which means it was the only chance he could directly communicate with him.

Running to his ward, he was scolded by the nurse who seemed to have just got back from Donghyuck's ward.

"I think you should just head back home, he had already fallen asleep so it's best to leave him alone" the nurse said with a slight frown, noting how she didn't want her patient to be disturbed.

"I-I need to stay for the night" No, Mark can't leave him, tonight is crucial.

"I know you are concerned but he was having these sleep talks earlier, he seems exhausted" and Mark was alarmed.

He's here, Donghyuck is here.

Not wanting to argue more with the nurse, he excuses himself saying that he will come back tomorrow first in the morning when instead he sneaks himself through the hospital hallway once again to get to Donghyuck's ward and there he was, his face is in discomfort, he was sweating bullets, fighting whatever is inside of him.

Mark went straight to his bed, holding his hand ever so tenderly, not wanting to surprise him when he was already in so much anguish.

"Hyuck-ah, it's hyung, Mark hyung" he whispered softly by his ear, just enough for them both to hear.

"Y-you remember when back then, when we got, um — separated, and there's that one night, we made this song, this stupid song with my out-of-tune guitar" his voice was shaking, he didn't know how much time he had left.

With a hushed tone, he sings it for him.

"I c-can try, tomorrow, if I am together with you —"

Once again he could feel a tear roll down his face, it's been too long since he last sang it.

"We made it because of that one night, you felt so homesick for traveling too often, you didn't even know what timezone you were in, we made it so you could get up again tomorrow, knowing that we had each other to lean on to, just like how we promised" Mark looks at Donghyuck who also cried a tear and that gives Mark hope that Donghyuck is listening, he is listening to him and he hasn't lost him yet.

"Donghyuck, it's always been you and I see it right through you"

Mark could see Donghyuck was mumbling something, he was trying to depict it but it was incoherent to his ears, he settled that it wasn't for him to hear. The hand that he held was shaky, his forehead quivered like he was having a terrible headache, and there were goosebumps down his neck. All he could do was pray that he would get out of this agony as soon as possible.

Please don't let him hurt anymore.

Countless times, he prays that night, at some point, Donghyuck has now calmed down, like a still lake, only him breathing.

Is it over?

That night, Mark accompanied him until the darkness finally went by.

//

That morning, Mark didn't realize he had fallen asleep by the bed. He is woken up by the soft touches stroking his head that cradle him deeper to sleep, but his subconscious, the one that was praying all night, gets a hold of him. He needs the answer to the question that is playing inside his mind all night long.

He awakes from his sleep, looking at the figure before him. He looked surprised by his sudden move, but no expression was seen. He couldn't read him.

"Donghyuck?" he asks, scared but hopeful.

A second went by before he was answered.

"Hyung, Minhyung hyung"

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                                            Thank you for reading it to the end <3 'till next time!