The new girl

Chapter 4

Jihoon's Pov.

Ever since Kaisa came, ever since I saw here face for the first time, I haven't stopped thinking about her. I just try to forget those feelings I have for her, by fucking other girls up. But, I still feel this empty feeling inside of me. I'm her roommate and I know she hates it when other girls are over. Especially when its a different every single day. I know she hates it, but I wanna see some more reactions. Something more than just going outside the door and leaving me there with them. I want her to get jealous. I want her to feel the same I feel when she's with that guy. I need to have over girls everyday so I wont loose it. Sharing the same room with a girl is not good for a guy with hormones like me, but when it's the girl who makes my heart rise just by seeing her face, it's a lot harder to control the hormones and the sexual tension I feel.I just don't know what to do when I'm around her. I can't sleep, I just end up staring at her peaceful face when she's sleeping, right next to me.
Yesterday, I had to much to drink. The thing is, when I drink I remember everything I did or happened, every last detail.
I know I kissed Kaisa, I know what I tried to do. I just couldn't stop it, I couldn't stop myself from doing it. But when my lips touched hers... I knew that I belonged to her. From that moment I just knew she was the one for me. I just had to have her. I don't regret kissing her. I don't. I'm just sad that she chose Vernon instead. I know Vernon. I know that when he likes someone he wants to be friends with that girl first. I know that he is someone that would take his chance and fuck her without thinking another thought. I was like that too, actually. But it changed, I don't want Kaisa for just fucking. Well yeah sure I want that too, but... I want a relationship with her. I want her to be my girlfriend. I want her to be mine and mine alone. I just can't shake that feeling away when I see her together with him, with Vernon. It's alright when I see her together with Ren, because I think he's gay or in love with Jujin... Not sure which one.... I don't really care, just he's not in love with my Kaisa than it's cool. Am I weird for thinking that? Is there something wrong with a player to stop his actions just for one girl?
Yes. I believe so. If not... Fuck you! I want to be close to Kaisa and I will be! She will be mine and mine alone someday. How can you stop these feelings?

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My heart haven't stopped hurting ever since Jihoon left. Ever since he kissed me my heart started to beat rapidity when I thought of him, when I saw him and even when I just heard his name. Is there something wrong with me. I know he was drunk when he kissed me.
But I also know that he remembers it. Even if he was lying to me, telling me that he didn't know if it was a dream or not... I could tell by just looking into his chocolate brown eyes that where twinkling by the light of the sun shining through the curtains that he was feeling something. Something special about... me...?
I could still taste his lips on mine. I sunk deeper into the bed and heaved a sigh. I touched my lips and a small smile crept onto my face. I could only think of his face, his cute and handsome face that where smiling to me.I could still feel his lips touching my bare skin on the neck, a small shiver rushed through me as I remembered how his arms where around waist.
How his warm breath touched my skin as he trailed small kisses onto my neck.

"You should have seen Mrs Kwon's face when he came in." I heard Dino's voice as he opened the door, revealing at least 6 other boys. I sat up again and smiled at him as he walked inside.
"You're up? Good. Let me introduce you to some of my friends." He smiled as he walked over to me. I smiled as he sat down beside me on Vernon's bed.
"Guys, this is Kaisa. She's Vernon's girlfriend." He said and I panicked.
"No. I'm just his friend... Not girlfriend." I said looking down at my hands that where lying in my lap. "Oh, then I assume you're single?" One of them said. He had kind of long hair, not that long but... Kind of long... He was handsome and without a doubt I think he knows it too. He had a small lip and pointy nose.
"Yes... I am..." I said as I looked up at him. He smiled as he sat down on the floor with the rest of them."I'm Wen Junhui, but call me Jun." He said in a smile. I smiled back at him and then looked at the rest of the guys.
"I'm Jeonghan!" This guy had longer hair than Jun. He was really pretty and reminded me of Ren...

The others introduced themselves so I now know their names. There was Jun, Jeonghan, Mingyu, Seungkwang, Seungcheol, Soonyoung aka Hoshi and Wonwoo. Soon after there was a knock on the door and Dino walked over to open while the others where talking about stuff with me.
"So, you have any siblings?" Wonwoo asked me and I smiled at his strange comment.
"Yes, a younger brother." I said in a smile remembering my sweet little brother Minhyuk. But he could be misunderstood as my older brother...
"Tell me about him." I smiled again as I started to talk about my little brother.

"Well, Lee Minhyuk is his name and he's only 2 years younger than me. But he looks like he is a lot older." I started.
"Here's a picture of him and me." I opened my phone and got into the gallery and looked for a photo of the two of us. I opened a photo that he had taking by himself. A photo of him doing aegyo to the camera... When did he take this photo?
"This your brother? Little brother?" Wonwoo asked in disbelief. I nod in a smile.
"Everyone thinks he's my older brother." I laughed as I saw their faces. It was priceless.
"What are you talking about?" I didn't even notice that Vernon had taken a seat next to me. When did he come?
"My brother..." I showed him the picture. His jaw dropped.

"Your brother? Wow... Now that I look at it, he looks like you a little." Vernon said as he put the phone up besides my face to compare my face with my brother's.
"You're Hana? Right?" A different voice said and I looked up to see a cute face."I'm Joshua." He said in a smile as he held out his hand for me to shake. I smiled back as I took his hand and shook it. All of us had fun with talking and we had Chinese take away. We where in the middle of eating when my phone started to ring. I took it and walked out so I could have some privacy since they where pretty loud when they talked...

"Noona~!" It was Minhyuk that was talking.
"Minhyukie~ how's my little brother?" I asked as I smiled after hearing his voice.
"I'm fine~ You know that girl I said I liked?" He sounded very happy... Something was going on.."Um... Ji-something...? Ji-Eun?" I said not really remembering her name.
"Ji-Young yes. Well, I was just asked out by her!" He squealed like a little girl going to the theme park for the first time...
"So, that's what you wanted to tell me? You just called me for that?" I asked faking my angry tone. "Yah~! Not at all! I was going to say that I will come to your school tomorrow. I want to see you and also meet your friends... Don't tell me you haven't gotten any friends yet." "
Yah, Minhyuk! Off course I've got friends!" I shouted at him through the phone. I could hear him laugh on the other end of the line.
"Yah! Stop laughing, you little!" I shouted as I ended the call.