My Brother's Clone✔ [Taekook]

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Taehyung's POV

 Jungkook and I didn't talk a word on Friday. Actually I didn't see him at all. He didn't join us for lunch. Eunwoo said Jungkook had to urgently meet the football coach during lunch.

I too was relieved about not seeing him. After yesterday's incident, I'm nervous to even look at him. I mean he was going to kiss me at the theatre.

What I feared exactly happened. I don't know what actually Jungkook want from me or how he sees me but one thing is clear, he isn't straight. He is interested in me that way.

 I don't know what to do. I feel scared.

 I clearly am not interested in him. I'm not attracted to boys first of all. And he freaking looks like my brother. I just see Han hyung in him and how the hell am I gonna...

 I don't even want to continue talking about that.

 It's all my fault actually. Thinking of him as hyung, I got close to him. He might have mistaken it for attraction or something. I shouldn't have got that intimate with him.

 But yesterday with my response, I believe I gave him the clear clue that I'm not interested in him that way. I hope he stops with that behavior towards me and we can be normal friends. But again after yesterday's incident, I'm not sure whether we will be able to behave normally to each other anymore.

 Gayoung said at lunch that she isn't going to her Dad on weekend and is staying at dorm. Eunwoo too said he isn't going. They both were planning something for the weekend. Eunwoo said he asked Jungkook to stay but Jungkook told him, he needs to go home urgently. But I know he is just nervous to face me.

 However, at the last moment, Gayoung's Dad came and picked her unexpectedly. And then Eunwoo also packed his stuff and went home, disappointed. So, once again I was alone at dorm for weekend.

 The weekend was actually peaceful. I ate, slept, studied and attended the classes of a few weekend online courses. I have been taking a lot of AP courses from the beginning of high school, especially during vacations cause they would help increase my overall GPA at the end. And since I didn’t have friends or anything, there wasn’t anything better for me to do than attend different courses and increase my knowledge level. Currently, I’m taking three AP and one honors. Anyway, so the two days went quickly and nobody came to disturb me. Gayoung was constantly messaging to make sure I was alright. She is scared I'll again pick a razor blade and start cutting.

 But on Sunday evening, I actually felt like cutting. Loneliness was seeping into me and I couldn't bear it. My arms itched to be cut. But I somehow controlled myself. It was a hard task. I thought of taking sleeping pills so that I will fall into the land of dreams and then I will know nothing. But Gayoung's messages prevented me from doing that.

 And I finally drifted into sleep at 9 or 10 pm with the relieving thought that tomorrow Gayoung will come and then she will give me company. But I was also nervous about meeting Jungkook. Still, at the same time, a part of me wanted to see him. He had not messaged or called me after Thursday night. Someway I missed seeing him and talking to him.

 At midnight, I woke up to my phone ringing continuously. I reached for it from near my lamp and found it was Jungkook calling. I looked at the time. It was 1: 14 am. I felt nervous. Why is he calling me at this time?

 I didn't pick the call. But then my phone was filling with Jungkook's messages. I went and read them. He was continuously asking me whether I was alright. He was pleading with me to pick his call.

 At last, I picked the call.

 “Taehyungie, are you alright?” Jungkook asked in a nervous and concerned voice as soon as I answered the call.