My Brother's Clone✔ [Taekook]

35. Do you hate me?

Taehyung’s POV

I finally saw Jungkook after a week on Wednesday. 

I had reached back at dorm last night and Jungkook arrived this morning. On hearing he arrived, Gayoung and I went to his dorm before class. 

Jungkook exchanged a quick hug with Gayoung but he didn't even look at me. That white bandage had disappeared from his forehead and instead there was a sticky bandage on the right side of his head. 

“When can you get rid of this?” Gayoung asked him, looking at the bandage. 

“Probably by Friday or Saturday. I need to go to the nurse today to redress it,” he told her. 

“So, how do you feel now,” She asked. 

“Better. But it's a bit itchy. And it's been days since I washed my hair,” he replied. 

“Yeah, your hair smells like shit,” she chuckled to which Jungkook replied with a sigh. 

I didn't talk anything. He wasn't even averting his attention to me, for me to start a conversation. And I had decided I won't act so desperate for his attention. I never called him or texted him after last Saturday. 

But it was hurting me inwardly and I was actually desperate for his attention. I tried a lot not to think about Jungkook but it only made me think about him more. I took one of hyung's photos last day and stared at it for a long time. But Jungkook wasn't like hyung to me anymore. Both of them suddenly felt entirely different. 

Yeah, I think I like Jungkook that way. 

Maybe there's still time for me to confess to him. He hasn't asked Gabriel out yet. But I'm sure he will just reject me. He now likes Gabriel. And he now treats me with contempt. 

But he liked me first. What if this is just his way to somehow forget his feelings for me? Maybe he still likes me?? Maybe he will accept my confession. 

But I'll never do it! It's a dangerous deal. Like Noona said, I won't be able to bear the consequences. And I'm not courageous enough to introduce to my parents a boy looking like hyung as my boyfriend. I didn’t even have the courage to show my sister his pic.

“Hey Tae!” Gayoung suddenly called, shaking me. 

“oh..yeah.,” I responded, flinching a bit. 

“What happened to you? I've been calling your name for some time,” she said, frowning. 

“Oh..sorry. I was thinking about something,” I replied and quickly glanced at Jungkook. He was now packing his school bag. Eunwoo was hurriedly combing his hair beside him, in front of the mirror. 

“C'mon, bell rang. Let's hurry,” Gayoung said and rushed out of the room. Bell rang? I didn't even hear it. 

“Jungkook, it's okay if you get a bit late to class. But don't run down the steps, okay?” Eunwoo told Jungkook before he hurried out of the room behind Gayoung. Jungkook nodded, tilting his head to the door and his gaze fell on me. I quickly turned around and rushed out of the room behind Eunwoo. 

My head was filled with lots of thoughts as I sat in the class. I couldn't concentrate a bit. It's been a week since I saw Jungkook and I didn't even say a word to him. And it's been two weeks since Jungkook put forward that deal. That day he told me to tell him honestly what I feel after two weeks. So if I hadn’t canceled the deal, today is the day I should tell him how I feel about him. But did we really cancel the deal? And how do I feel about Jungkook? Do I really like him?

No! I can’t tell him honestly. I can’t even imagine what will happen after that. 

But I can’t bear this. It's making me crazy. I'll die of madness if he continues ignoring me. I need to talk to him, just something, anything. I just want him to talk a word nicely to me.