The Time Everything Changed

WHAT WAS IT ALL FOR

It hurts to realize that the love I thought we shared was never real. You made me believe you loved me, but now I see it was all a lie. It's not fair to play with someone's emotions like that. I deserve to be loved sincerely, and you were never capable of that.

I was deeply hooked by the thought of being in love with you, and the knowledge that you reciprocated those feelings intensified my emotions further. It was a feeling of completeness and contentment that I had never experienced before as if all the pieces of my life had finally fallen into place. The mere thought of you brought me immense joy and a sense of euphoria that I constantly yearned for.

But to you, I was just another girl. Wasn't I? I wasn't ever truly the one you wanted.

Instead of being honest, you led me to believe that I mattered to you when I meant nothing to you in reality. It's hard to describe the pain I feel inside, knowing that to me, you were everything, but to you, I was just an afterthought. Every moment spent together felt like a dream, but now that dream has turned into a nightmare. It's like a part of me is missing, and no matter how much I try to fill that void, it just keeps getting bigger. The memories of our time together haunt me every day, and it's hard to imagine a life without you. I wish I had meant as much to you as you did to me, but it seems like that was never the case.

Despite all the negative things people have said about you, I know a different side of you. They may judge you based on your past, but I have seen the good in you. They don't understand the way you make me feel, the way you light up my world. I know you're not perfect, but you're perfect for me.

i don't hate you. Trust me, no matter how much I want to, I can't bring myself to do it, the love and care I have for you runs too deep. Every fiber of my being aches to be close to you, to feel your warmth, and to hold you close. Please know that my heart will always belong to you, no matter what happens. "My love for you is eternal and unwavering( it was real ). No matter what happens, I will always cherish you and hold you close to my heart. You mean everything to me, and I am grateful for every moment we spend together. I promise always to love you, now and forever."

I've always carried this heavy weight within me, the feeling that I'm just not good enough for you. No matter how hard I tried, it seemed like I was always falling short. It was a constant battle in my head, and it was exhausting. I just wish I could finally feel like I belong like I'm enough for you. It's hard to believe that we were so different. We had opposite personalities, yet we somehow connected and shared some of the most memorable moments of our lives. I'll never forget that

The pain I'm feeling is indescribable. It seems like you were able to move on so rapidly, without any hesitation, as though what we shared was insignificant to you. The memories we created now seem like they never existed, leaving me feeling lost and alone.

Since the day I left, I have been experiencing an overwhelming sense of emptiness. It's as if a vital part of my being has departed along with you, leaving me feeling incomplete and hollow. now I don't know how to get that part of me back.

If only I could undo everything! I want to wipe out every single trace of my love for you, including the heartfelt letters, the paintings that captured our moments, and all the secrets that I shared with you. It's painful to remember the love I had for you when you're no longer here.

You do not deserve them.

I can't help but feel a sense of regret and sadness when I think about how things turned out. Part of me wishes that things could have gone differently. It's just the way it is. That's what I keep telling myself over and over again. Trying to make sense of what could have been or what should have been will only drive me insane. It hurts to accept things that didn't go as planned, but I'm slowly coming to terms with it. Every day feels like a struggle, and the pain of your absence doesn't seem to fade away. Though I'm trying my best, I can't help but feel lost in a world without you. But I know, deep down, that I'll learn to live without you, even if it takes time. And I'm willing to take that time

(LIAM)

-Leigh